Reply To: Suicides & Torments

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On Iridesce wrote:

Hey guys, I’m new to this board, but it’s hard but great to find a group of people who are supportive of one another, gosh, anywhere. And it’s great, because you’re all Pumpkins fans too!

I remember being suicidal in high school, and sometimes it seemed like the Pumpkins were the only thing that got me through the rough times. It was like, if I kill myself, I probably won’t be able to hear this song ever again, and if the Pumpkins DO get back together soon, I won’t be able to see them live, and that would suck ass. I have to remember and believe in that dream if it’s going to happen. Their music always reminded me of the good things in life that I enjoy, in a time when it was hard to remember those things, and helped me remember that better days and new growth were possible.

It’s hard to talk about this stuff with other people, especially if they’re not fans of the band. They’ll tell me, \"Sarah, they’re just a rock band.\", but there is so much more to their music, so many interpretations, emotionally and spiritually, that help me grow and see things clearly, and get beyond the depressing and sad things.

Sometimes it’s easy in the short run to runaway and escape things, but the demons always come back if we don’t face them dead on in the first place, which is hard as hell to do, especially if Mommy and Daddy didn’t teach us how to (they’re too busy struggling with their own demons), and we have to fend for ourselves. It’s hard, but not impossible, to overcome, and having love and good music on your side makes things better!

This is uplifting:

17 seconds of compassion
17 seconds of peace
17 seconds to remember love is the energy behind which all is created
17 seconds to remember all that is good
17 seconds to forget all your hurt and pain
17 seconds of faith
17 seconds to trust you again
17 seconds of radiance
17 seconds to send a prayer up
17 seconds is all you really need

Truth is madness, and madness truth, trully revealed.