I Fall

Original Lyrics

It makes no difference to me
If I die in my sleep tonight
I’m sick to the bone
And longing for home
My blood runs white
And I didn’t want anyone
And I didn’t want anyone
To be hurt by my words
If there’s pain in hell, I’m feeling it today
Wishing I were seven in a children’s heaven
How heavy the world weighs
How heavy the world weighs
How heavy the world weighs
How heavy the world weighs
Ghosts don’t cry
And the dead don’t die
They walk hand in hand
As if partners in crime
Partners in crime
I fall
On and on and on down
I fall
On and on and on down
I’m falling down
On and on and on down
I fall
On and on and on down
The world could feed you love
But it’s me you’ve come to despise
Like a head on a plate of purity
Playing Judas Iscariot
In the hands of sanctity
How heavy the world weighs
How heavy the world weighs
When one must carry the world
I fall
On and on and on down
I fall
On and on and on down
I’m falling down
On and on and on down
I’m falling down
On and on
I fall down
I fall down
When you’re not around
I fall
On and on and on down
I fall down
On and on and on
On and on and on
On and on and on down
I fall down
I fall down
How heavy the world weighs
How heavy the world weighs

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Time:
6:13 
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Recorded by Billy Corgan and James Iha, using a drummachine, at Billy's father Home Studio. For 3 different reasons this song can be considered as the first creative outing of the Smashing Pumpkins, though the bandname was not yet known at that moment:

1. It was recorded by 2 future Smashing Pumpkins members, without any other influences of members of other bands, past or present at that time.

2. The Smashing Pumpkins played this song live at least 1 time, at the Avalon in Chicago on 1988/08/10.

3. In 1989 this exact same recorded track was released on a private demotape called Gish/Moon, with the name Smashing Pumpkins on it.

Billy Corgan has always said he considered the Smashing Pumpkins existing from 1988 till 2000. We however, consider this recording part of the Smashing Pumpkins history and we could say technically the Smashing Pumpkins exist since 1987.

Lyrics: live 1988/08/10

It makes no difference to me

If i die in my sleep tonight

I'm sick to the bone

And longing for home

My blood runs white

And i didn't want anyone

And i didn't want anyone

To be hurt by my words

If there's pain in hell, i'm feeling it today

Wishing i were seven in a children's heaven

How heavy the world weighs

How heavy the world weighs

Ghosts don't cry

And the dead don't die

They walk hand in hand

As if partners in crime

Partners in crime

Partners in crime

I fall

On and on and on down

I fall

On and on and on down

Falling down

On and on and on down

I'm falling down

On and on and on down

The world could feed you lies

But it's me you've come to despise

Like a head on a plate of purity

Playing judas iscariot

In the hands of sanctity

How heavy the world weighs

How heavy the world weighs

When one must carry the world

I fall

On and on and on down

I fall

On and on and on down

I'm falling down

On and on and on down

I'm falling down

On and on and on down

I fall

On and on and on down

I'm falling down

On and on and on

On and on and on down

I fall down

When you're not around

I fall down

When you're not around

Version Information

Time:
6:15 
Additional Info:
 

Slightly different lyrics from the studio version.

Lyrics: live 1988/08/10

It makes no difference to me

If i die in my sleep tonight

I'm sick to the bone

And longing for home

My blood runs white

And i didn't want anyone

And i didn't want anyone

To be hurt by my words

If there's pain in hell, i'm feeling it today

Wishing i were seven in a children's heaven

How heavy the world weighs

How heavy the world weighs

Ghosts don't cry

And the dead don't die

They walk hand in hand

As if partners in crime

Partners in crime

Partners in crime

I fall

On and on and on down

I fall

On and on and on down

Falling down

On and on and on down

I'm falling down

On and on and on down

The world could feed you lies

But it's me you've come to despise

Like a head on a plate of purity

Playing judas iscariot

In the hands of sanctity

How heavy the world weighs

How heavy the world weighs

When one must carry the world

I fall

On and on and on down

I fall

On and on and on down

I'm falling down

On and on and on down

I'm falling down

On and on and on down

I fall

On and on and on down

I'm falling down

On and on and on

On and on and on down

I fall down

When you're not around

I fall down

When you're not around

Version Information

Time:
6:15 
Additional Info:
 

Slightly different lyrics from the studio version.