live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 4:22

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2107463

Additional Info: The studiotrack samples the rocket launcher explosion from an id Software's game called Doom. This sound effect points to the relationship between Doom and the Smashing Pumpkins in the "SPISPOPD" (an abbreviation for Smashing Pumpkins Into Small Piles Of Putrid Debris) joke, dating from December 1993. The Doom explosion, mentioned in the liner notes of MCIS, can be heard at the following times: 1:20 / 1:55 / 2:29 / 3:01 / 3:44.

Candy cane walks down

To build a bonfire, to break my fall

My baby, my sweet thing

Just maybe we could lose ourselves this time

King of the horseflies, dark prince of death

His tragic forces are heaven sent

In sweet things, in a lovers breath

In knowing this was meant to be the last

A go-go-kids, a go-go-style

A suck suck kiss, a suck suck smile

As always, in young need

A veiled promise to never die

On dead highways, her black beauties roam

For june angels, so far from home

For a love lost, a faded picture

To tread lightning, to ink the lavender skies

So get on the bomb

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 1:28

Written By: Billy Corgan

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 2:40

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035569

My reflection, dirty mirror

There's no connection to myself

I'm your lover, I'm your zero

I'm the face in your dreams of glass

So save your prayers

For when we're really gonna need 'em

Throw out your cares and fly

Wanna go for a ride?

She's the one for me

She's all I really need

Cause she's the one for me

Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness

And cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me

Intoxicated with the madness, I'm in love with my sadness

Bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms

The fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth

I never let on, that I was on a sinking ship

I never let on that I was down

You blame yourself, for what you can't ignore

You blame yourself for wanting more

She's the one for me

She's all I really need

She's the one for me

She's my one and only

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 3:46

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 3770773

So here we are

True superstars

We're so real from afar and now

Now you're with us now

And the mouths of babes sing revolution

And the mouths of babes scream disillusion

You can't break what's already broken

Cause from the mouths of babes comes nothing

The "dream" was a sham

For saving what you can't

And now they're me but I'm not them

I am you and you are me

It's in the ways I walk thru fire

It's in the ways of my desire

And when I said that you're no good

What I meant was I wish you could

Be there forever

Be young forever

I wish you were there

So now I bid farewell

Beyond the bounds of hell

And now you'll swear you knew us well

Well you can never tell

And the mouths of babes sing revolution

And the mouths of babes scream disillusion

You can't break what's already broken

Cause from the mouths of babes comes nothing

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 4:57

BMI Number: 1776116

Freak out

And give in

Doesn't matter what you believe in

Stay cool

And be somebody's fool this year

'Cause they know

Who is righteous, What is bold

So I'm told

Who wants honey

As long as there's some money

Who wants that honey?

Hipsters unite

Come align for the big fight to rock for you

But beware

All those angels with their wings glued on

'Cause deep down

We are frightened and we're scared

If you don't stare

Who wants honey

As long as there's some money

Who wants that honey?

Let me out

Let me out

Let me out

Let me out

Tell me all of your secrets

Cannot help but believe this is true

Tell me all of your secrets

I know, I know, I know,

Should have listened when I was told

Who wants honey

As long as there is some money

Who wants that honey?

Let me out

Let me out

Let me out

Let me out

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 4:16

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 1995911

Ten times removed

I forget about where it all began

Bastard son of a bastard son of

A wild eyed child of the sun

And right as rain, I'm not the same but

I feel the same, I feel nothing

Holding back the fool again

Holding back the fool pretends

I forget to forget nothing is important

Holding back the fool again

I sensed my loss

Before I even learned to talk

And I remember my birthdays

Empty party afternoons won't come back

Holding back the fool again

Holding back the fool pretends

I forget to forget nothing is important

Holding back the fool again

I forget to forget me

I forget to forget you see

Nothing is important to me

I knew my loss

Before I even learned to speak

And all along, I knew it was wrong

But I played along, with my birthday song

Holding back the fool again

Holding back the fool pretends

I forget to forget nothing is important

Holding back the fool again

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 4:15

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035564

Time is never time at all

You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth

And our lives are forever changed

We will never be the same

The more you change the less you feel

Believe, believe in me, believe

That life can change, that you're not stuck in vain

We're not the same, we're different tonight

Tonight, so bright

Tonight

And you know you're never sure

But you're sure you could be right

If you held yourself up to the light

And the embers never fade in your city by the lake

The place where you were born

Believe, believe in me, believe

In the resolute urgency of now

And if you believe there's not a tonight

Tonight, so bright

Tonight

We'll crucify the insincere tonight

We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight

We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight

The indescribable moments of your life tonight

The impossible is possible tonight

Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 9:12

BMI Number: 1810465

I hear your winter

I hear you rain

I've failed your summer ways

And I feel no pain

I hear what you want

And I feel that way

I hear what you want

And I feel that way

I hear you fade away

And I hear you crawl

I gave my life away

And I feel no pain

And I feel no pain

And I feel no pain

And I feel your pain

And she was my lover so sweet

And she was my angel

And what I've recovered of me

I put into a box underneath my bed

When you lie in your bed

And you lie to yourself

When you lie in your bed

And you lie to yourself

Lie

Lie

Bang bang you're dead hole in your head

Bang bang you're dead hole in your head

Bang bang you're dead hole in your head

Bang bang you're dead hole in your head

I hear what you want

And I feel that way

I hear what you want

And I feel that way

(Alright, this take, don't give a fuck.)

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 3:19

BMI Number: 1776114

Today is the greatest

Day I've ever known

Can't live for tomorrow,

Tomorrow's much too long

I'll burn my eyes out

Before I get out

I wanted more

Than life could ever grant me

Bored by the chore

Of saving face

Today is the greatest

Day I've ever known

Can't wait for tomorrow

I might not have that long

I'll tear my heart out

Before I get out

Pink ribbon scars

That never forget

I tried so hard

To cleanse these regrets

My angel wings

Were bruised and restrained

My belly stings

Today is

Today is

Today is

The greatest day

I want to turn you on

I want to turn you on

I want to turn you on

I want to turn you

Today is the greatest

Today is the greatest day

Today is the greatest day

That I have ever really known

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 7:38

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2107451

Wrap me up in always, and drag me in with maybes

Your innocence is treasure, your innocence is death

Your innocence is all I have

Breathing underwater, and living under glass

And if you spin your love around

The secrets of your dreams

You may find your love is gone

And is not quite what it seemed

To appear to disappear

Beneath all your darkest fears

I believe in never, I believe in all the way

But belief is not to notice, believe is just some faith

And faith can't help you to escape

And with this ring I wed thee true

And with this ring I wed thee now

And with this ring I play so dead

But no one's asking for the truth, so let me tell you

If you spin your love around

The secrets of your dreams

You may find your love is gone

And is not quite what it seemed

To appear to disappear

Beneath all your darkest fears

To the revelations of fresh faced youth

No one will come to save you

So speak your peace in the murmurs drawn

But youth is wasted on the young

Your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate

My love for you just can't explain

Why we're forever frozen, forever beautiful,

Forever lost inside ourselves

The night has come to hold us young

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 4:10

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 1995895

Speak to me in a language I can hear

Humour me before I have to go

Deep in thought I forgive everyone

As the cluttered streets greet me once again

I know I can't be late, supper's waiting on the table

Tomorrow's just an excuse away

So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own

The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet

At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk

Steeple guide me to my heart and home

The sun is out and up and down again

I know I'll make it, love can last forever

Graceful swans of never topple to the earth

And you can make it last, forever you

You can make it last, forever you

And for a moment I lose myself

Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world

I've journeyed here and there and back again

But in the same old haunts I still find my friends

Mysteries not ready to reveal

Sympathies I'm ready to return

I'll make the effort, love can last forever

Graceful swans of never topple to the earth

Tomorrow's just an excuse

And you can make it last, forever you

You can make it last, forever you

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 3:17

BMI Number: 1776748

Disarm you with a smile

And cut you like you want me to

Cut that little child

Inside of me and such a part of you

Ooh, the years burn

I used to be a little boy

So old in my shoes

And what I choose is my choice

What's a boy supposed to do?

The killer in me is the killer in you

My love

I send this smile over to you

Disarm you with a smile

And leave you like they left me here

To wither in denial

The bitterness of one who's left alone

Ooh, the years burn

Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn

I used to be a little boy

So old in my shoes

And what I choose is my voice

What's a boy supposed to do?

The killer in me is the killer in you

My love

I send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you

Send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you

Send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you

Send this smile over to you

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 4:16

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 1995912

The world is a vampire, sent to drain

Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames

And what do I get, for my pain

Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game

Even though I know-i suppose I'll show

All my cool and cold-like old job

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal

But can you fake it, for just one more show

And what do you want, I want to change

And what have you got

When you feel the same

Even though I know-i suppose I'll show

All my cool and cold-like old job

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Tell me I'm the only one

Tell me there's no other one

Jesus was an only son

Tell me I'm the chosen one

Jesus was an only son for you

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

And I still believe that I cannot be saved

(An Ode To No One) live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 4:50

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035606

I'm never coming back

I'm never giving in

I'll never be the shine in your spit

I disconnect the act

I disconnect the dots

I disconnect the me in me

And you're mistaken, it's you that's faking

Living and breathing and dying too

This message is for anyone who dares to hear a fool

You can't bring me back, you can't bring me back

Cause I give it all back to you

Thru sacred alleys, the living wrecks

Wreak their havoc upon this world

The disenchanted, the romantics,

The body and face and soul of you is gone down that deep black hole

Destroy the mind-destroy the body-but you cannot destroy the heart

And you, you make me so I need to disconnect

And you make it so real

I don't need you love to disconnect

To runaround kids in get-go cars

With vaseline afterbirths and neon coughs

Galaxies full of nobodies

Giving us the farewell runarounds

I took a virgin mary axe to his sweet baby jane,

Lost my innocence to a no good girl,

Scratch my face with anvil hands,

And coil my tongue around a bumblebee mouth

And I give it all back to you

No way, I don't need it, I don't need your love to disconnect

And you make it, so real, I don't need your love to disconnect

No way to disconnect

And you make it so real

I don't need your love to disconnect

No way to disconnect

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 9:21

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035566

As far as you take me, that's where I believe

The realm of soft delusions, floating on the leaves

On a distant shoreline, she waves her arms to me

As all the thought police, are closing in for sleep

The dilly dally, of my bright lit stay

The steam of my misfortunes

Has given me the power to be afraid

And in my mind I'm everyone

And in my mind

Without a care in this whole world

Without a care in this life

It's what you take that makes it right

Porcelina of the oceans blue

In the slipstream, of thoughtless thoughts

The light of all that's good, the light of all that's true

To the fringes gladly, I walk unadorned

With gods and their creations

With filth and disease

Porcelina, she waits for me there

With seashell hissing lullabyes

And whispers fathomed deep inside my own

Hidden thoughts and alibis

My secret thoughts come alive

Without a care in this whole world

Without a care in this life

It's what you take that makes it right

And in my mind I'm everyone

In my mind I'm everyone of you

You make it right

It's all allright

You make it right

Porcelina of the oceans blue

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 4:18

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035554

Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun

Wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come

And I can't help but feel attached

To the feelings I can't even match

With my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you

Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky

Wonderful, it's wonderful, to know that you're just like I

And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't

But you just can't tell

Who you love and who you won't

And I love you, as you love me

So let the clouds roll by your face

We'll let the world spin on to another place

We'll climb the tallest tree above it all

To look down on you and me and them

And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't

But you just can't tell, who you'll love and who you won't

Don't let your life wrap up around you

Don't forget to call, whenever

I'll be here just waiting for you

I'll be under your stars forever

Neither here nor there just right beside you

I'll be under the stairs forever

Neither here nor there just right beside you

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 3:44

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035605

I fear that I am ordinary, just like everyone

To lie here and die among the sorrows

Adrift among the days

For everything I ever said

And everything I've ever done is gone and dead

As all things must surely have to end

And great loves will one day have to part

I know that I am meant for this world

My life has been extraordinary

Blessed and cursed and won

Time heals but I'm forever broken

By and by the way...

Have you ever heard the words

I'm singing in these song?

It's for the girl I've loved all along

Can a taste of love be so wrong

As all things must surely have to end

And great loves will one day have to part

I know that I am meant for this world

And in my mind as I was floating

Far above the clouds

Some children laughed I'd fall for certain

For thinking that I'd last forever

But I knew exactly where I was

And I knew the meaning of it all

And I knew the the distance to the sun

And I knew the echo that is love

And I knew the secrets in your spires

And I knew the emptiness of youth

And I knew the solitude of heart

And I knew the murmurs of the soul

And the world is drawn into your hands

And the world is etched upon your heart

And the world so hard to understand

Is world you can't live without

And I knew the silence of the world

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 4:28

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2107458

Shakedown 1979

Cool kids never have the time

On a live wire

Right up off the street

You and I should meet

Junebug skipping like a stone

With the headlights pointed at the dawn

We were sure we'd never see an end to it all

And I don't even care

To shake these zipper blues

And we don't know

Just where our bones will rest

To dust I guess

Forgotten and absorbed

Into the earth below

Double cross the vacant and the bored

They're not sure just what we have in store

Morphine city slippin' dues

Down to see

That we don't even care

As restless as we are

We feel the pull

In the land of a thousand guilts

And poured cement

Lamented and assured

To the lights and towns below

Faster than the speed of sound

Faster than we thought we'd go

Beneath the sound of hope

Justine never knew the rules

Hung down with the freaks and the ghouls

No apologies ever need be made

I know you better than you fake it

To see that we don't even care

To shake these zipper blues

And we don't know

Just where our bones will rest

To dust I guess

Forgotten and absorbed

Into the earth below

The street heats the urgency of now (written: sound)

As you can see there's no one around

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 7:07

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035579

She didn't wanna be, she didn't wanna know

She couldn't run away cause she was crazy

She gave it all away, she saw her baby break

And in the air it hung that she was dull razors

And I said, I wanna fill you up, I wanna break you, I wanna give you up

From one another, another one should come to one another

No one should come between us

Still I was lonely, and she was by my side, my one and only

Knows that she could never hide

I couldn't feel her, and it was just a game,

Cause I was lonely and she was crazy

Rat-tat-tat, ka boom boom, now take that, and just a bit of this

Cause I'm a watcher, and I'm a doer of none

Come to save you, cause you're all mine

I hurt where I can't feel, I feel where I can't hurt

I know where I can't know, I bleed for me and mine

Ka-boom, a rat-tat-tat, and some good ole bliss

Cause I'm a sister, and I'm a motherfuck

I am made of shamrocks, I am made of stern stuff

I am never enough, I am the forgotten child

And I said I wanna fill you up, I wanna break you, I wanna give you up

From one another, no one should ever come

In between us, between us and our love

Mary had a little lamb, her face was white as snow

And everywhere that mary went I was sure to go

Now mary's got a problem, and mary's not a stupid girl

Mary's got some deep shit, and mary does not forget

And this is how mary's garden grows, and this is how mary has her ghosts

And into the eyes of the jackyl I say ka-boom

Now we begin descent, to where we've never been

There is no going back, this wasn't meant to last

This is a hell on earth, we are meant to serve

And she will never learn

Bye bye, baby goodbye

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 4:48

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035603

By starlight I'll kiss you

And promise to be your one and only

I'll make you feel happy

And leave you to be lost in mine

And where will we go, what will we do?

Soon said I, will know

Dead eyes, are you just like me?

Cause her eyes were as vacant as the seas

Dead eyes, are you just like me?

And all along, we knew we'd carry on

Just to belong

By starlight I know you

As lovely as a wish granted true

My life has been empty, my life has been untrue

And does she really know, who I really am?

Does she really know me at last

Dead eyes, are you just like me?

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 8:17

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 346740

No matter where you are

I can still hear you when you drown

You've traveled very far

Just to see you I'll come around

When I'm down

All of those yesterdays

Coming around

No matter where you are

I can still hear you when you dream (on some versions, "scream")

You traveled very far

You traveled far, like a star

And you are

All of those yesterdays

Coming around

Is it something someone said?

Was it something someone said?

Yesterday the sky was you

And I still feel the same

Nothing left for me to do

And I still feel the same

I wish, I wish I could fly

I wish, I wish I could lie

I will, I will try

I will, I will

Goodbye

live 1996.08.30

Track Length: 6:56

BMI Number: 1776119

Faith lies in
The ways of sin
I chased the charmed
But I don’t want them anymore
And in their eyes I was alive
A fool’s disguise
Take me away from you
Shame my tongue
Fat with promise all along
But when I woke up from that sleep
I was happier than I’d ever been
When you decide
That your life is a prize
Renew and revive
It’s alright honey
It’s alright, yeah
Happiness will make you wonder
Will I feel OK?
It scares the disenchanted
Far away
Yeah I want something new
But what am I supposed to do about you
Yeah I love you, it’s true
Life’s a bummer
When you’re a hummer
Life’s a drag
Ask yourself a question
Anyone but me
I ain’t free
Ask yourself a question
Anyone but me
I ain’t free
Do you feel
Love is real?