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The Unofficial Smashing Pumpkins

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1997.??.?? 
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It is still unknown if this is an official cd, for the moment we presume so. This is the info from the eBay auction in 2009:

“The SMASHING PUMPKINS PROMOTIONAL CD COMPILATION

Late 1990’s compilation of Smashing Pumpkins songs handmade by a Chicago company that had The Smashing Pumpkins as clients for many years. It’s nearly impossible to find information about the existence of this item, it’s so rare. You can find information linking the company to the band, but these were so limited, so rare, and usually SO RUINED by DJs playing songs off of them on the air, that the ones that did exist DON’T anymore.

Down below, you can read a story describing the relationship of the band to the company that made the CD. Basically, it was authorized by the band, but only to be sent out to a FEW select important radio stations in the U.S. Not to be sold in stores to the public. It is filled with an amazing selection of rarities, including import b-sides, deep album cuts, and LIVE SONGS NEVER RELEASED ON ANY PUMPKINS ALBUM!

They cover CHEAP TRICK and Cheap Trick is on stage with them!

The CD has NEVER BEEN PLAYED. It is as minty as the day it arrived at the radio station. This was owned by an employee once all of the music in their format was transferred from CD to computer and compact discs were never played again. Basically, it was an incentive from the company that was making the Pumpkins famous, to say “We respect you as a radio station, and we’re letting you hear these cool rare songs by the band”, but tight formats didn’t allow the broadcasting of unfamiliar album tracks and b-sides, therefore the disc went right into the station’s library.

HERE ARE THE TRACKS:

1. God (from Zero)

2. Disarm (LIVE Chicago 10/23/95)

3. 1979 (LIVE San Diego 2/7/96)

4. Believe (German b-side)

5. Blank (from Tonight Tonight)

6. Bullet With Butterfly Wings (LIVE Chicago 10/23/95)

7. Cherry (German b-side)

8. Cherub Rock (LIVE same show as trks 1,6)

9. If You Want My Love (LIVE same as 1,6,8 w/ CHEAP TRICK)

10. Jupiter’s Lament (from Tonight, Tonight)

11. Marquis In Spades (from Zero)

12. Meladori Magpie (from Tonight, Tonight)

13. Pennies (from Zero)

14. Rotten Apples (from Tonight, Tonight)

15. Said Sadly… (b-side Bullet With Butterfly Wings)

16. Set The Ray To Jerry (German b-side)

17. The Boy (German b-side)

18. Today (LIVE San Diego 2/7/96)

19. Tonight, Tonight (LIVE same as above)

20. Tribute To Johnny (from Zero)

21. Ugly (German b-side)

This CD, again, was handmade by a music promotion company that marketed the Smashing Pumpkins in their career. It has a computer-generated label, says PROMOTIONAL USE ONLY on the rear cover, and has the name of the promotional company associates on the front. You’ll be lucky if you ever see another copy of this while you’re on this planet unless someone decides to make unauthorized copies of it. There are numbers on the inner rim of the CD. We’ve overexposed the photograph on purpose so there won’t be a way for anyone to clearly see it if they’re planning on making a boot of it to sell. Only the buyer will see exactly what this whole baby looks like.

Anyone with questions, or anyone who is a big Smashing Pumpkins collector and wants to talk to another Pumpkins freak about other items that might be in my possession, click the “ask seller a question button”. I have freakishly rare autographed things, early rare items, blah blah blah…

Taken from an internet story of high-powered music world bigwigs:

Jeff McClusky & Associates. Over the course of the last eighteen years, McClusky has made JM&A the largest full-service music promotion and marketing company in the country. Madonna, U2, the Smashing Pumpkins and Alanis have all been McClusky’s clients – before you heard of them. In the last year, Radio and Records Magazine’s Independent Promotion Executive of 1988 started a Film, TV and Soundtrack Advertising division, and entered into a million-dollar pact with Cumulus (owner of 210 radio stations nationwide), which reportedly grants McClusky the power to pitch artists’ songs directly to the company’s top dogs. If you have your musical bases loaded, get yourself a McClusky and he’ll drive you home every time.”



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Length: 3:09

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995919

God knows I’m helpless to speak
On my own behalf
God is as helpless as me
Caught in the negatives
We all just do as we please
False transmissions
I hope god forgives me
For my transgressions
It’s what you want
To know no consequences
It’s what you need
To fucking bleed
It’s all too much
God knows I’m restless and weak
Full of piss and vinegar
God knows we sow what we reap
In the dirt of grandeur
When the darkness comes to me
And it fixes its gaze on me
God knows I’m helpless
It’s what you want
To know no consequences
It’s what you need
To fucking bleed
It’s all to much
God knows I’m helpless
You break your back
For what you can’t have
You can’t turn back
God knows I’m helpless

live 1995.10.23

Length: 3:04

BMI Number: 1776748

Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn
I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my choice
What’s a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you
Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who’s left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn
I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my voice
What’s a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you

live 1996.01.31

Track Length: 4:28

Written By:

BMI Number: 2107458

Shakedown 1979

Cool kids never have the time

On a live wire

Right up off the street

You and I should meet

Junebug skipping like a stone

With the headlights pointed at the dawn

We were sure we'd never see an end to it all

And I don't even care

To shake these zipper blues

And we don't know

Just where our bones will rest

To dust I guess

Forgotten and absorbed

Into the earth below

Double cross the vacant and the bored

They're not sure just what we have in store

Morphine city slippin' dues

Down to see

That we don't even care

As restless as we are

We feel the pull

In the land of a thousand guilts

And poured cement

Lamented and assured

To the lights and towns below

Faster than the speed of sound

Faster than we thought we'd go

Beneath the sound of hope

Justine never knew the rules

Hung down with the freaks and the ghouls

No apologies ever need be made

I know you better than you fake it

To see that we don't even care

To shake these zipper blues

And we don't know

Just where our bones will rest

To dust I guess

Forgotten and absorbed

Into the earth below

The street heats the urgency of now (written: sound)

As you can see there's no one around

Length: 3:15

BMI Number: 3649468

Close your eyes
Until the sunlight dies
In your head a thousand stars
Through the darkness you can see a light
And if they steal your life
Your heart is still mine
I want to believe in you and I heard you
Your song, you sing, a truth, there’s no other
I want to believe in you, dear
On Sunday…
There’s a life I hide
Well I tried to disguise
And I can take you a million miles away
I want to believe in you and I heard you
Your song, you sing, a truth, there’s no other
I want to believe in you, dear
On Sunday I made amends
For all my mistakes
May God speed be with you
Oooh…oooh…oooh…oooh
And I…
I want to believe in you and I heard you
Your song, you sing a truth, there’s no other
I want to believe in you and I heard you
Your song, you sing a truth, there’s no other
I want to believe in you and I heard you
Your song, (soft) you sing, a truth, a lover
I want to believe in you and I heard you
Your song, you sing a truth, there’s no other
I want to believe in you, dear
Sunday
Sunday
I want to make amends
For all my mistakes
May God speed be with you

Length: 2:55

BMI Number: 1995864

I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank
I write a letter to you
And there’d be nothing to it
I wouldn’t hem and haw
On just how to start it
I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank
I wish I’d stand up straight
I wish I’d said things different
I wish I’d said nothing
Things would be so perfect
I wish myself to keep
I pray myself to sleep
I wish myself away
I wish I was blank

live 1995.10.23

Length: 4:14

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995912

The world is a vampire, sent to drain

Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames

And what do I get, for my pain

Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game

Even though I know-i suppose I'll show

All my cool and cold-like old job

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal

But can you fake it, for just one more show

And what do you want, I want to change

And what have you got

When you feel the same

Even though I know-i suppose I'll show

All my cool and cold-like old job

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Tell me I'm the only one

Tell me there's no other one

Jesus was an only son

Tell me I'm the chosen one

Jesus was an only son for you

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

And I still believe that I cannot be saved

Length: 4:02

BMI Number: 3649474

(Listen- Wanna just start it?…Ready, Flood?
Yeah……1,2,3,4)
Stay with me, I’ll set you free
‘Cause I can tell you once were pretty
Rose so sad you’ve lost your petals
Lost the luster off your tattle tales
I need a love to help me find my way
I need a strength that I can not betray
I need a word to say what I can’t say
I need a lover, lover
I need a lover, lover
What are we waiting for?
What are we waiting for?
Time has lost its hold on me
Hatred sleeps inside my bones
In the stillness of cool air
All the boys have been left for dead
‘Cause we go where they fear to tread
The beautiful one’s the one’s we’ll remember
The precious one’s our greatest pretenders
I need a love to help me find my way
I need a strength that I cannot betray
I need a word to say what I can’t say
I need a lover, lover
I need a lover, lover
And if you lose yourself
Could you take me, too?
Could you rest inside the sleep?
Stay with me, I’ll set you free from you…..
Stay with me, I’ll set you free from you…..
Stay with me, I’ll set you free from you…..
Stay with me, I’ll set you free from you…..
I need a love…..

live 1995.10.23

Track Length: 4:57

BMI Number: 1776116

Freak out

And give in

Doesn't matter what you believe in

Stay cool

And be somebody's fool this year

'Cause they know

Who is righteous, What is bold

So I'm told

Who wants honey

As long as there's some money

Who wants that honey?

Hipsters unite

Come align for the big fight to rock for you

But beware

All those angels with their wings glued on

'Cause deep down

We are frightened and we're scared

If you don't stare

Who wants honey

As long as there's some money

Who wants that honey?

Let me out

Let me out

Let me out

Let me out

Tell me all of your secrets

Cannot help but believe this is true

Tell me all of your secrets

I know, I know, I know,

Should have listened when I was told

Who wants honey

As long as there is some money

Who wants that honey?

Let me out

Let me out

Let me out

Let me out

live 1995.10.23

Additional Info: Cover of Cheap Trick. The Smashing Pumpkins played it together with them on 1995/10/23 in the Riviera Theater, Chicago. Curious: Jimmy Chamberlin played guitar during all 3 tracks they played together…

If you want my love, you got it

When you need my love, you got it

I won't hide it

I won't throw your love away

If you want my love, you got it

When you need my love, you got it

I won't hide it

I won't throw your love away

Yes, I thought you were a mystery girl

A special girl in this crazy old world

You couldn't sit here while I layed my hands on you

Lonely is only a place you don't know

What it's like, you can't find it

It's a hole in my heart, in my heart

If you want my love, you got it

When you need my love, you got it

I won't hide it

I won't throw your love away

You hold the secrets of love in this world

I'm hypnotized by your every word

A special place, a special push, a special smile in my life

Cause lonely is only a place you don't know

What it's like, you can't find it

It's a hole in my heart, in my heart

If you want my love, you got it

When you need my love, you got it

I won't hide it

I won't throw your love away

If you want my love, you got it

When you need my love, you got it

I won't hide it

I won't throw your love away

Length: 2:32

BMI Number: 1995906

Additional Info: Acoustic.

Gone, long gone

Blink and I’ll be gone, gone, gone

Leave this world of wrong, wrong, wrong

Leave it far behind

And although my secret’s gone

I’ll try to carry on

If I must, I’ll get along

Without you

Gone, long gone

Leave this world of wrong, wrong, wrong

Beyond the pale, beyond the dawn

Flee these mortal bonds

No one knows I can’t be wrong

So I’ll sing the same old song

I tried to be strong

For you

Why have you left me?

Amongst the tall trees

I know I gave her all I have

And I tied her heart in ribbons

Tied her heart in ribbons

Tied her heart in ribbons

And bows

And I’m gone

Oh yes, I’m gone

And I’m lost without you

I’m lost within you

And I’m gone

So gone

Long gone

Length: 3:12

Written By:

BMI Number: 3704170

[“Rolling…” “I was just on another planet for a sec…”

“Run it back, Mole… (amp on) …fucker…”]

And I’d love you to notice

I’m devoted

To destroy for no one

Now it’s that time again to take revenge

On all the debutantes and their friends

The bitter charlemagnes so self-absorbed

The bodily remains such a bore

Hey, yeah

Was I good enough to break you

Hey, yeah

And all I see is empty

‘Cause now I’m one of them

So adored

The slink of impotence

That money can afford

We know who you are and where you live

Is your innocence all that you can give

Hey, yeah

Was I good enough to break you

Hey, yeah

In the back of the car

The angel dust was given back to the stars

Hey, yeah

Was I good enough to break you

Hey, yeah

And in this fall from grace

We’ll meet again

Another time another place

I’ve been down deep in you and me

Let’s see where we can go

Yeah yeah yeah

Angels, barbed wire

Fuck you, desire

Length: 2:41

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995887

Additional Info: It's early title is Doorstep.

And on her doorstep

I saw that I was blind

I’d forsaken

What was mine

What had mattered

Mattered little now

We had shattered

Apart somehow

Ooh

I can’t help but stay the same

I remain true to my name

Time to get up

And take the long walk home

For the first time

I go alone

Do you remember

When we first met?

Chasing down the alleyways

Behind my dad’s

Ooh

I can’t help but stay the same

I remain true to the name

Of lovers past

Good enough to lose

Good enough to choose you, too

Ooh

I can’t help but stay the same

Ooh

I remain true to the name

Of lovers past

Good enough to lose

Good enough to choose you, too

Length: 2:29

Written By:

BMI Number: 3704169

And I stumbled onto you

As you stumbled over me

And you say the fates were cruel

For throwing us together

I always loved you so

Especially when you’d go

All the world must know

All the world must know

That I loved you so

It’s a pity we’re apart

It’s a shame you broke my heart

But I’ve got a new girlfriend

She looks a lot like you dear

No one could ever do dear

All the world must know

That I loved you so

Especially when you’d go

Especially when you’d go

Especially when you’d go

Away and leave me here

All the world must know

Pennies for sale

Pennies for sale

Pennies for sale

Pennies for sale

Length: 3:02

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995870

Dirty your face

With longing and grace, God-given

Suffer her heart

And love her when your love goes unrequited

Where the cool winds blow

I must surely go

For my love calls me below to drag her

From the depths of my soul

When will I see her again?

The other side of friends

The darkened claws of death

The empty breath desire

Dirty your face

With longing and grace, God-given

Suffer her heart

And love her when your love goes unrequited

Restless in my speech

And ruthless in my teach

So vacant in my breach

I drive the dirt up her garden

Sorrow

She’ll never listen again

No other lovers to bend

Just rotten apples to eat

Just letter yellowed distant scorn

Dirty your face

With longing and grace, God-given

Suffer her heart

And love her when your love goes unrequited

Life just fades away

Purity just begs

Dust to dust, we’re wired into sadness

Length: 3:09

Written By:

BMI Number: 3649464

(JI=James Iha, NG=Nina Gordon (of Veruca Salt), J+N=both)
JI: You should know that I love you
We should love like lovers do
And I can’t help but fall for you
Ah honey I’m just a fool
Now you know
NG: Darling, I’ll never be true
You see, for so long I was blue
JI: (I’m not the only one)
NG: And if I hurt, then you will, too
Ah honey I always lose
Now you know
J+N: Lover, when will you?
JI: I’m so afraid that no one cares
J+N: Lover, can’t find you
JI: I swear to God don’t leave me here
J+N: Now you know
J+N: Oh, you know that it can’t be
But no one else here really means
JI: (Anything to me)
J+N: If you hurt inside
If you confide in me again
NG: Since you ran away
JI: Hold me now, tell me how
Love is ours
J+N: Lover, when will you?
I’m so afraid that no one cares
Lover, can’t find you
And no one knows what brings us here
Lover
JI: Hold me now
NG: Hold me now
JI: Tell me how
J+N: Love is ours

Length: 4:10

BMI Number: 1776130

Born to please, every simple need

I stand alone in my thoughts indeed

Hate you

For ever making me

I’m in you, I’m your anything

And I- want you

And I- need you

And all you are is brand new

And I- need you

Come to me, let me hold you still

I’m so tired, just as tired as you

Take me for anyone but me

All that you feel is never true

And I- want you

And I- need you

And all you are is brand new

And I- need you

When you say that you are

Forever my star

Could never let you go, no, no

And never let you know

Let roar these fears

To the whore of my tears

Pure as a lie, I pour to your eyes

Suck you like the sap from a tree

Honey from the dew, from the bumblebees, yeah yeah

And I- want you

And I- need you

And all you are is brand new

And I- need you

When you say that you are

Forever my star

Could never let you go, no, no

Never let you know

And I- want you

And I- need you

And all you are is brand new

And I- need you

Length: 3:04

BMI Number: 3871423

I can’t stop, I can’t breathe, I can’t think

I’m in love again

I don’t need, I don’t eat, I don’t sleep

I’m in love again

Ooh, and every time I heard you breathe

Well I sighed

Ooh, and every time I saw you bleed

Well I cried

Love is like a song

And if you sing

If you ever need me

I’ll be there in a while

I can’t stop, I can’t breathe, I can’t think

I’m in love again

I don’t need, I don’t eat, I don’t sleep

I’m in love again

Ooh, and everytime that I’m with you

I’m alive

Ooh, and everytime I think of you

There’s a light

And I felt it, too

In my heart is a spring

Is a well, if you need

If you drink, if you heal

If you believe in

Every little part of me is a part of you

I can’t stop, I can’t breathe, I can’t think

I’m in love again

I don’t need, I don’t eat, I don’t sleep

I’m in love again

I can’t stop, I can’t breathe, I can’t think

I’m in love again

I don’t need, I don’t eat, I don’t sleep

I’m in love again

The boy, the boy’s in love

The boy, the boy’s in love

The boy, the boy’s in love

The boy, the boy’s in love

live 1996.01.31

Track Length: 3:19

BMI Number: 1776114

Today is the greatest

Day I've ever known

Can't live for tomorrow,

Tomorrow's much too long

I'll burn my eyes out

Before I get out

I wanted more

Than life could ever grant me

Bored by the chore

Of saving face

Today is the greatest

Day I've ever known

Can't wait for tomorrow

I might not have that long

I'll tear my heart out

Before I get out

Pink ribbon scars

That never forget

I tried so hard

To cleanse these regrets

My angel wings

Were bruised and restrained

My belly stings

Today is

Today is

Today is

The greatest day

I want to turn you on

I want to turn you on

I want to turn you on

I want to turn you

Today is the greatest

Today is the greatest day

Today is the greatest day

That I have ever really known

live 1996.01.31

Track Length: 4:15

Written By:

BMI Number: 2035564

Time is never time at all

You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth

And our lives are forever changed

We will never be the same

The more you change the less you feel

Believe, believe in me, believe

That life can change, that you're not stuck in vain

We're not the same, we're different tonight

Tonight, so bright

Tonight

And you know you're never sure

But you're sure you could be right

If you held yourself up to the light

And the embers never fade in your city by the lake

The place where you were born

Believe, believe in me, believe

In the resolute urgency of now

And if you believe there's not a tonight

Tonight, so bright

Tonight

We'll crucify the insincere tonight

We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight

We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight

The indescribable moments of your life tonight

The impossible is possible tonight

Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight

Length: 2:33

Written By:

BMI Number: 3704173

Additional Info: Tribute to Johnny Winter

Instrumental

Length: 2:52

BMI Number: 3649475

Additional Info: "Started as an album song until the very last moment, when Mellon Collies was cut from 31 to 28 songs, this is an interesting interpretation of what had essentially been an acoustic song. Flood and I tried about four different versions before settling on this one [see Queen's Hot Space album]. One version that I liked was just me and a distorted guitar. But in the end this version won, only to be mixed into eternal obscurity as a B-side." -BC (Guitar World 1/97)

I don’t look in the mirror

I don’t like what I see staring back at me

Everything is clearer

I’ll never see what you see

It’s not me

So beautiful and free

I’ll never be what you need

I can’t help it at all

I was born so beautiful

But now I’m ugly

And I rot in my skin

As a piece of me dies everyday

I know I’m nothing

I know there’s nothing I can say

To change

The judgement in their ways

I’ll never be what you need

I can’t help it at all

My love was so beautiful

But now I’m ugly

Yeah…

I’m good enough, but I don’t care

I’m good enough, but I’m not there

I’m good enough, but I don’t care

The sun is out, but I’m not there

(I can go anywhere) I’m good enough, but I don’t care (…somewhere)

(I can go anywhere) The sun is out, but I’m not there (…somewhere)

(I can go anywhere) I’m good enough (…somewhere)

(I can go anywhere) I’m good enough (…somewhere)

I don’t look in the mirror

I don’t like what I see staring back at me

Everything is clearer

I’ll never see what you see

And I rot in my skin

As a piece of me dies everyday

I know I’m nothing

Because I’m ugly