Item Details
- Item Category:
- Compilation
- Artist:
- Smashing Pumpkins
- Format:
- CD
- Release Type:
- Promotional
- Release Date:
- 1997.??.??
- Release Country:
- United States
- Manufacture Country:
- United States
- Package:
- Jewel Case
- Label:
- Jeff McClusky & Associates
- Release Code:
- (no ID)
- UPC:
- Matrix Code:
- B8D12QE2S APBB
- Other Code:
- RPM:
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Additional Information
It is still unknown if this is an official cd, for the moment we presume so. This is the info from the eBay auction in 2009:
“The SMASHING PUMPKINS PROMOTIONAL CD COMPILATION
Late 1990’s compilation of Smashing Pumpkins songs handmade by a Chicago company that had The Smashing Pumpkins as clients for many years. It’s nearly impossible to find information about the existence of this item, it’s so rare. You can find information linking the company to the band, but these were so limited, so rare, and usually SO RUINED by DJs playing songs off of them on the air, that the ones that did exist DON’T anymore.
Down below, you can read a story describing the relationship of the band to the company that made the CD. Basically, it was authorized by the band, but only to be sent out to a FEW select important radio stations in the U.S. Not to be sold in stores to the public. It is filled with an amazing selection of rarities, including import b-sides, deep album cuts, and LIVE SONGS NEVER RELEASED ON ANY PUMPKINS ALBUM!
They cover CHEAP TRICK and Cheap Trick is on stage with them!
The CD has NEVER BEEN PLAYED. It is as minty as the day it arrived at the radio station. This was owned by an employee once all of the music in their format was transferred from CD to computer and compact discs were never played again. Basically, it was an incentive from the company that was making the Pumpkins famous, to say “We respect you as a radio station, and we’re letting you hear these cool rare songs by the band”, but tight formats didn’t allow the broadcasting of unfamiliar album tracks and b-sides, therefore the disc went right into the station’s library.
HERE ARE THE TRACKS:
1. God (from Zero)
2. Disarm (LIVE Chicago 10/23/95)
3. 1979 (LIVE San Diego 2/7/96)
4. Believe (German b-side)
5. Blank (from Tonight Tonight)
6. Bullet With Butterfly Wings (LIVE Chicago 10/23/95)
7. Cherry (German b-side)
8. Cherub Rock (LIVE same show as trks 1,6)
9. If You Want My Love (LIVE same as 1,6,8 w/ CHEAP TRICK)
10. Jupiter’s Lament (from Tonight, Tonight)
11. Marquis In Spades (from Zero)
12. Meladori Magpie (from Tonight, Tonight)
13. Pennies (from Zero)
14. Rotten Apples (from Tonight, Tonight)
15. Said Sadly… (b-side Bullet With Butterfly Wings)
16. Set The Ray To Jerry (German b-side)
17. The Boy (German b-side)
18. Today (LIVE San Diego 2/7/96)
19. Tonight, Tonight (LIVE same as above)
20. Tribute To Johnny (from Zero)
21. Ugly (German b-side)
This CD, again, was handmade by a music promotion company that marketed the Smashing Pumpkins in their career. It has a computer-generated label, says PROMOTIONAL USE ONLY on the rear cover, and has the name of the promotional company associates on the front. You’ll be lucky if you ever see another copy of this while you’re on this planet unless someone decides to make unauthorized copies of it. There are numbers on the inner rim of the CD. We’ve overexposed the photograph on purpose so there won’t be a way for anyone to clearly see it if they’re planning on making a boot of it to sell. Only the buyer will see exactly what this whole baby looks like.
Anyone with questions, or anyone who is a big Smashing Pumpkins collector and wants to talk to another Pumpkins freak about other items that might be in my possession, click the “ask seller a question button”. I have freakishly rare autographed things, early rare items, blah blah blah…
Taken from an internet story of high-powered music world bigwigs:
Jeff McClusky & Associates. Over the course of the last eighteen years, McClusky has made JM&A the largest full-service music promotion and marketing company in the country. Madonna, U2, the Smashing Pumpkins and Alanis have all been McClusky’s clients – before you heard of them. In the last year, Radio and Records Magazine’s Independent Promotion Executive of 1988 started a Film, TV and Soundtrack Advertising division, and entered into a million-dollar pact with Cumulus (owner of 210 radio stations nationwide), which reportedly grants McClusky the power to pitch artists’ songs directly to the company’s top dogs. If you have your musical bases loaded, get yourself a McClusky and he’ll drive you home every time.”
Track List
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The Unofficial Smashing Pumpkins
- 1 . God
Lyrics
God knows I’m helpless to speak
On my own behalf
God is as helpless as me
Caught in the negatives
We all just do as we please
False transmissions
I hope god forgives me
For my transgressions
It’s what you want
To know no consequences
It’s what you need
To fucking bleed
It’s all too much
God knows I’m restless and weak
Full of piss and vinegar
God knows we sow what we reap
In the dirt of grandeur
When the darkness comes to me
And it fixes its gaze on me
God knows I’m helpless
It’s what you want
To know no consequences
It’s what you need
To fucking bleed
It’s all to much
God knows I’m helpless
You break your back
For what you can’t have
You can’t turn back
God knows I’m helpless - 2 . Disarm
Lyrics
Disarm you with a smile
And cut you like you want me to
Cut that little child
Inside of me and such a part of you
Ooh, the years burn
I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my choice
What’s a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you
Disarm you with a smile
And leave you like they left me here
To wither in denial
The bitterness of one who’s left alone
Ooh, the years burn
Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn
I used to be a little boy
So old in my shoes
And what I choose is my voice
What’s a boy supposed to do?
The killer in me is the killer in you
My love
I send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you
The killer in me is the killer in you
Send this smile over to you - 3 . 1979
Details
Title extra: live 1996.01.31
Track Length: 4:28
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 2107458
Lyrics
Shakedown 1979
Cool kids never have the time
On a live wire
Right up off the street
You and I should meet
Junebug skipping like a stone
With the headlights pointed at the dawn
We were sure we'd never see an end to it all
And I don't even care
To shake these zipper blues
And we don't know
Just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed
Into the earth below
Double cross the vacant and the bored
They're not sure just what we have in store
Morphine city slippin' dues
Down to see
That we don't even care
As restless as we are
We feel the pull
In the land of a thousand guilts
And poured cement
Lamented and assured
To the lights and towns below
Faster than the speed of sound
Faster than we thought we'd go
Beneath the sound of hope
Justine never knew the rules
Hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
No apologies ever need be made
I know you better than you fake it
To see that we don't even care
To shake these zipper blues
And we don't know
Just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed
Into the earth below
The street heats the urgency of now (written: sound)
As you can see there's no one around
- 4 . Believe
Lyrics
Close your eyes
Until the sunlight dies
In your head a thousand stars
Through the darkness you can see a light
And if they steal your life
Your heart is still mine
I want to believe in you and I heard you
Your song, you sing, a truth, there’s no other
I want to believe in you, dear
On Sunday…
There’s a life I hide
Well I tried to disguise
And I can take you a million miles away
I want to believe in you and I heard you
Your song, you sing, a truth, there’s no other
I want to believe in you, dear
On Sunday I made amends
For all my mistakes
May God speed be with you
Oooh…oooh…oooh…oooh
And I…
I want to believe in you and I heard you
Your song, you sing a truth, there’s no other
I want to believe in you and I heard you
Your song, you sing a truth, there’s no other
I want to believe in you and I heard you
Your song, (soft) you sing, a truth, a lover
I want to believe in you and I heard you
Your song, you sing a truth, there’s no other
I want to believe in you, dear
Sunday
Sunday
I want to make amends
For all my mistakes
May God speed be with you - 5 . Blank
Lyrics
I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank
I write a letter to you
And there’d be nothing to it
I wouldn’t hem and haw
On just how to start it
I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank
I wish I’d stand up straight
I wish I’d said things different
I wish I’d said nothing
Things would be so perfect
I wish myself to keep
I pray myself to sleep
I wish myself away
I wish I was blank - 6 . Bullet With Butterfly Wings
Details
Title extra: live 1995.10.23
Length: 4:14
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995912
Lyrics
The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get, for my pain
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game
Even though I know-i suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal
But can you fake it, for just one more show
And what do you want, I want to change
And what have you got
When you feel the same
Even though I know-i suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Tell me I'm the only one
Tell me there's no other one
Jesus was an only son
Tell me I'm the chosen one
Jesus was an only son for you
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
And I still believe that I cannot be saved
- 7 . Cherry
Lyrics
(Listen- Wanna just start it?…Ready, Flood?
Yeah……1,2,3,4)
Stay with me, I’ll set you free
‘Cause I can tell you once were pretty
Rose so sad you’ve lost your petals
Lost the luster off your tattle tales
I need a love to help me find my way
I need a strength that I can not betray
I need a word to say what I can’t say
I need a lover, lover
I need a lover, lover
What are we waiting for?
What are we waiting for?
Time has lost its hold on me
Hatred sleeps inside my bones
In the stillness of cool air
All the boys have been left for dead
‘Cause we go where they fear to tread
The beautiful one’s the one’s we’ll remember
The precious one’s our greatest pretenders
I need a love to help me find my way
I need a strength that I cannot betray
I need a word to say what I can’t say
I need a lover, lover
I need a lover, lover
And if you lose yourself
Could you take me, too?
Could you rest inside the sleep?
Stay with me, I’ll set you free from you…..
Stay with me, I’ll set you free from you…..
Stay with me, I’ll set you free from you…..
Stay with me, I’ll set you free from you…..
I need a love….. - 8 . Cherub Rock
Lyrics
Freak out
And give in
Doesn't matter what you believe in
Stay cool
And be somebody's fool this year
'Cause they know
Who is righteous, What is bold
So I'm told
Who wants honey
As long as there's some money
Who wants that honey?
Hipsters unite
Come align for the big fight to rock for you
But beware
All those angels with their wings glued on
'Cause deep down
We are frightened and we're scared
If you don't stare
Who wants honey
As long as there's some money
Who wants that honey?
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Tell me all of your secrets
Cannot help but believe this is true
Tell me all of your secrets
I know, I know, I know,
Should have listened when I was told
Who wants honey
As long as there is some money
Who wants that honey?
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
Let me out
- 9 . If You Want My Love
Details
Title extra: live 1995.10.23
Additional Info: Cover of Cheap Trick. The Smashing Pumpkins played it together with them on 1995/10/23 in the Riviera Theater, Chicago. Curious: Jimmy Chamberlin played guitar during all 3 tracks they played together…
Lyrics
If you want my love, you got it
When you need my love, you got it
I won't hide it
I won't throw your love away
If you want my love, you got it
When you need my love, you got it
I won't hide it
I won't throw your love away
Yes, I thought you were a mystery girl
A special girl in this crazy old world
You couldn't sit here while I layed my hands on you
Lonely is only a place you don't know
What it's like, you can't find it
It's a hole in my heart, in my heart
If you want my love, you got it
When you need my love, you got it
I won't hide it
I won't throw your love away
You hold the secrets of love in this world
I'm hypnotized by your every word
A special place, a special push, a special smile in my life
Cause lonely is only a place you don't know
What it's like, you can't find it
It's a hole in my heart, in my heart
If you want my love, you got it
When you need my love, you got it
I won't hide it
I won't throw your love away
If you want my love, you got it
When you need my love, you got it
I won't hide it
I won't throw your love away
- 10 . Jupiter’s Lament
Lyrics
Gone, long gone
Blink and I’ll be gone, gone, gone
Leave this world of wrong, wrong, wrong
Leave it far behind
And although my secret’s gone
I’ll try to carry on
If I must, I’ll get along
Without you
Gone, long gone
Leave this world of wrong, wrong, wrong
Beyond the pale, beyond the dawn
Flee these mortal bonds
No one knows I can’t be wrong
So I’ll sing the same old song
I tried to be strong
For you
Why have you left me?
Amongst the tall trees
I know I gave her all I have
And I tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons
And bows
And I’m gone
Oh yes, I’m gone
And I’m lost without you
I’m lost within you
And I’m gone
So gone
Long gone
- 11 . Marquis In Spades
Lyrics
[“Rolling…” “I was just on another planet for a sec…”
“Run it back, Mole… (amp on) …fucker…”]
And I’d love you to notice
I’m devoted
To destroy for no one
Now it’s that time again to take revenge
On all the debutantes and their friends
The bitter charlemagnes so self-absorbed
The bodily remains such a bore
Hey, yeah
Was I good enough to break you
Hey, yeah
And all I see is empty
‘Cause now I’m one of them
So adored
The slink of impotence
That money can afford
We know who you are and where you live
Is your innocence all that you can give
Hey, yeah
Was I good enough to break you
Hey, yeah
In the back of the car
The angel dust was given back to the stars
Hey, yeah
Was I good enough to break you
Hey, yeah
And in this fall from grace
We’ll meet again
Another time another place
I’ve been down deep in you and me
Let’s see where we can go
Yeah yeah yeah
Angels, barbed wire
Fuck you, desire
- 12 . Meladori Magpie
Details
Length: 2:41
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995887
Additional Info: It's early title is Doorstep.
Lyrics
And on her doorstep
I saw that I was blind
I’d forsaken
What was mine
What had mattered
Mattered little now
We had shattered
Apart somehow
Ooh
I can’t help but stay the same
I remain true to my name
Time to get up
And take the long walk home
For the first time
I go alone
Do you remember
When we first met?
Chasing down the alleyways
Behind my dad’s
Ooh
I can’t help but stay the same
I remain true to the name
Of lovers past
Good enough to lose
Good enough to choose you, too
Ooh
I can’t help but stay the same
Ooh
I remain true to the name
Of lovers past
Good enough to lose
Good enough to choose you, too
- 13 . Pennies
Lyrics
And I stumbled onto you
As you stumbled over me
And you say the fates were cruel
For throwing us together
I always loved you so
Especially when you’d go
All the world must know
All the world must know
That I loved you so
It’s a pity we’re apart
It’s a shame you broke my heart
But I’ve got a new girlfriend
She looks a lot like you dear
No one could ever do dear
All the world must know
That I loved you so
Especially when you’d go
Especially when you’d go
Especially when you’d go
Away and leave me here
All the world must know
Pennies for sale
Pennies for sale
Pennies for sale
Pennies for sale
- 14 . Rotten Apples
Lyrics
Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited
Where the cool winds blow
I must surely go
For my love calls me below to drag her
From the depths of my soul
When will I see her again?
The other side of friends
The darkened claws of death
The empty breath desire
Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited
Restless in my speech
And ruthless in my teach
So vacant in my breach
I drive the dirt up her garden
Sorrow
She’ll never listen again
No other lovers to bend
Just rotten apples to eat
Just letter yellowed distant scorn
Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited
Life just fades away
Purity just begs
Dust to dust, we’re wired into sadness
- 15 . …Said Sadly
Lyrics
(JI=James Iha, NG=Nina Gordon (of Veruca Salt), J+N=both)
JI: You should know that I love you
We should love like lovers do
And I can’t help but fall for you
Ah honey I’m just a fool
Now you know
NG: Darling, I’ll never be true
You see, for so long I was blue
JI: (I’m not the only one)
NG: And if I hurt, then you will, too
Ah honey I always lose
Now you know
J+N: Lover, when will you?
JI: I’m so afraid that no one cares
J+N: Lover, can’t find you
JI: I swear to God don’t leave me here
J+N: Now you know
J+N: Oh, you know that it can’t be
But no one else here really means
JI: (Anything to me)
J+N: If you hurt inside
If you confide in me again
NG: Since you ran away
JI: Hold me now, tell me how
Love is ours
J+N: Lover, when will you?
I’m so afraid that no one cares
Lover, can’t find you
And no one knows what brings us here
Lover
JI: Hold me now
NG: Hold me now
JI: Tell me how
J+N: Love is ours - 16 . Set The Ray To Jerry
Lyrics
Born to please, every simple need
I stand alone in my thoughts indeed
Hate you
For ever making me
I’m in you, I’m your anything
And I- want you
And I- need you
And all you are is brand new
And I- need you
Come to me, let me hold you still
I’m so tired, just as tired as you
Take me for anyone but me
All that you feel is never true
And I- want you
And I- need you
And all you are is brand new
And I- need you
When you say that you are
Forever my star
Could never let you go, no, no
And never let you know
Let roar these fears
To the whore of my tears
Pure as a lie, I pour to your eyes
Suck you like the sap from a tree
Honey from the dew, from the bumblebees, yeah yeah
And I- want you
And I- need you
And all you are is brand new
And I- need you
When you say that you are
Forever my star
Could never let you go, no, no
Never let you know
And I- want you
And I- need you
And all you are is brand new
And I- need you
- 17 . The Boy
Lyrics
I can’t stop, I can’t breathe, I can’t think
I’m in love again
I don’t need, I don’t eat, I don’t sleep
I’m in love again
Ooh, and every time I heard you breathe
Well I sighed
Ooh, and every time I saw you bleed
Well I cried
Love is like a song
And if you sing
If you ever need me
I’ll be there in a while
I can’t stop, I can’t breathe, I can’t think
I’m in love again
I don’t need, I don’t eat, I don’t sleep
I’m in love again
Ooh, and everytime that I’m with you
I’m alive
Ooh, and everytime I think of you
There’s a light
And I felt it, too
In my heart is a spring
Is a well, if you need
If you drink, if you heal
If you believe in
Every little part of me is a part of you
I can’t stop, I can’t breathe, I can’t think
I’m in love again
I don’t need, I don’t eat, I don’t sleep
I’m in love again
I can’t stop, I can’t breathe, I can’t think
I’m in love again
I don’t need, I don’t eat, I don’t sleep
I’m in love again
The boy, the boy’s in love
The boy, the boy’s in love
The boy, the boy’s in love
The boy, the boy’s in love
- 18 . Today
Lyrics
Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't live for tomorrow,
Tomorrow's much too long
I'll burn my eyes out
Before I get out
I wanted more
Than life could ever grant me
Bored by the chore
Of saving face
Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I'll tear my heart out
Before I get out
Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
I tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings
Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you
Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever really known
- 19 . Tonight, Tonight
Details
Title extra: live 1996.01.31
Track Length: 4:15
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 2035564
Lyrics
Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel
Believe, believe in me, believe
That life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
We're not the same, we're different tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
And you know you're never sure
But you're sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade in your city by the lake
The place where you were born
Believe, believe in me, believe
In the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight
- 20 . Tribute To Johnny
Details
Length: 2:33
Written By: Billy Corgan + James Iha
BMI Number: 3704173
Additional Info: Tribute to Johnny Winter
Lyrics
Instrumental
- 21 . Ugly
Details
Length: 2:52
BMI Number: 3649475
Additional Info: "Started as an album song until the very last moment, when Mellon Collies was cut from 31 to 28 songs, this is an interesting interpretation of what had essentially been an acoustic song. Flood and I tried about four different versions before settling on this one [see Queen's Hot Space album]. One version that I liked was just me and a distorted guitar. But in the end this version won, only to be mixed into eternal obscurity as a B-side." -BC (Guitar World 1/97)
Lyrics
I don’t look in the mirror
I don’t like what I see staring back at me
Everything is clearer
I’ll never see what you see
It’s not me
So beautiful and free
I’ll never be what you need
I can’t help it at all
I was born so beautiful
But now I’m ugly
And I rot in my skin
As a piece of me dies everyday
I know I’m nothing
I know there’s nothing I can say
To change
The judgement in their ways
I’ll never be what you need
I can’t help it at all
My love was so beautiful
But now I’m ugly
Yeah…
I’m good enough, but I don’t care
I’m good enough, but I’m not there
I’m good enough, but I don’t care
The sun is out, but I’m not there
(I can go anywhere) I’m good enough, but I don’t care (…somewhere)
(I can go anywhere) The sun is out, but I’m not there (…somewhere)
(I can go anywhere) I’m good enough (…somewhere)
(I can go anywhere) I’m good enough (…somewhere)
I don’t look in the mirror
I don’t like what I see staring back at me
Everything is clearer
I’ll never see what you see
And I rot in my skin
As a piece of me dies everyday
I know I’m nothing
Because I’m ugly
- 1 . God
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