live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 4:12

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2107455

Sleep will not come to this tired body now

Peace will not come to this lonely heart

There are some things I'll live without

But I want you to know that I need you right now

I need you tonite

I steal a kiss from her sleeping shadow moves

Cause I'll always miss her wherever she goes

And I'll always need her more than she could ever need me

I need someone to ease my mind

But sometimes a someone is so hard to find

And I'll do anything to keep her here tonite

And I'll say anything to make her feel alright

And I'll be anything to keep her here tonite

Cause I want you to stay, with me

I need you tonite

She comes to me like an angel out of time

As I play the part of a saint on my knees

There are some things I'll live without

But I want you to know that I need you right now

Suffer my desire

Suffer my desire

Suffer my desire for you

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 2:50

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2114422

Cupid hath pulled back his sweetheart's bow

To cast divine arrows into her soul

To grab her attention swift and quick

Or morrow the marrow of her bones be thick

With turpentine kisses and mistaken blows

See the devil may do as the devil may care

He loves none sweeter as sweeter the dare

Her mouth the mischief he doth seek

Her heart the captive of which he speaks

So note all ye lovers in love with the sound

Your world be shattered with nary a note

Of one cupids arrow under your coat

And in the land of star crossed lovers

And barren hearted wanderers

Forever lost in forsaken missives and satan's pull

We seek the unseekable and we speak the unspeakable

Our hopes dead gathering dust to dust

In faith, in compassion, and in love

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 4:10

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 1995895

Speak to me in a language I can hear

Humour me before I have to go

Deep in thought I forgive everyone

As the cluttered streets greet me once again

I know I can't be late, supper's waiting on the table

Tomorrow's just an excuse away

So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own

The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet

At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk

Steeple guide me to my heart and home

The sun is out and up and down again

I know I'll make it, love can last forever

Graceful swans of never topple to the earth

And you can make it last, forever you

You can make it last, forever you

And for a moment I lose myself

Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world

I've journeyed here and there and back again

But in the same old haunts I still find my friends

Mysteries not ready to reveal

Sympathies I'm ready to return

I'll make the effort, love can last forever

Graceful swans of never topple to the earth

Tomorrow's just an excuse

And you can make it last, forever you

You can make it last, forever you

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 3:19

BMI Number: 1776114

Today is the greatest

Day I've ever known

Can't live for tomorrow,

Tomorrow's much too long

I'll burn my eyes out

Before I get out

I wanted more

Than life could ever grant me

Bored by the chore

Of saving face

Today is the greatest

Day I've ever known

Can't wait for tomorrow

I might not have that long

I'll tear my heart out

Before I get out

Pink ribbon scars

That never forget

I tried so hard

To cleanse these regrets

My angel wings

Were bruised and restrained

My belly stings

Today is

Today is

Today is

The greatest day

I want to turn you on

I want to turn you on

I want to turn you on

I want to turn you

Today is the greatest

Today is the greatest day

Today is the greatest day

That I have ever really known

(My One And Only) live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 3:31

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 1995908

Lily, my one and only

I can hardly wait till I see her

Silly, I know I'm silly

Cause I'm hanging in this tree

In the hopes that she will catch a glimpse of me

And thru her window shade

I watch her shadow move

I wonder if she.......?

Lily, my one and only

Love is in my heart and in your eyes

Will she or won't she want him

No one knows for sure

But an officer is knocking at my door

And thru her window shade

I watch her shadow move

I wonder if she could only see me?

And when I'm with her I feel fine

If I could kiss her I wouldn't mind the time it took to find

My lily, my one and only

I can hardly wait till I see her

Oh lily, I know you love me

Cause as they're draggin' me away

I swear I saw her raise her hand and wave (goodbye)

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 2:52

Written By: James Iha

BMI Number: 2107376

Take me down, to the underground

Won't you take me down, to the underground

Why oh why, there is no light

And if I can't sleep, can you hold my life

And all I see is you

Take my hand, I lost where I began

In my heart I know all of my faults

Will you help me understand

And I believe in you

You're the other half of me

Soothe and heal...

When you sleep, when you dream,

I'll be there if you need me, whenever I hear you sing...

There is a sun, it'll come, the sun, I hear them call me down

I held you once, a love that once, and life had just begun

And you're all I see...

And trumpets blew, and angels flew on the other side

And you're all I see, and you're all I'll need

There's a love that god puts in your heart

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 4:18

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035554

Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun

Wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come

And I can't help but feel attached

To the feelings I can't even match

With my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you

Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky

Wonderful, it's wonderful, to know that you're just like I

And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't

But you just can't tell

Who you love and who you won't

And I love you, as you love me

So let the clouds roll by your face

We'll let the world spin on to another place

We'll climb the tallest tree above it all

To look down on you and me and them

And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't

But you just can't tell, who you'll love and who you won't

Don't let your life wrap up around you

Don't forget to call, whenever

I'll be here just waiting for you

I'll be under your stars forever

Neither here nor there just right beside you

I'll be under the stairs forever

Neither here nor there just right beside you

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 4:06

BMI Number: 1776746

Bleed in your own light

Dream of your own life

I miss me

I miss everything I'll never be

And on, and on

I torch my soul to show

The world that I am pure

Deep inside my heart

No more lies

A crown of horns

An image formed deformed

The mark I've borne

A mark of scorn to you

Consume my love, devour my hate

Only powers my escape

The moon is out, the stars invite

I think I'll leave tonight

So soon I'll find myself alone

To relax and fade away

Do you know what's coming down

Do you know I couldn't stay free?

I shall be free

I shall be free

I shall be free

I shall be free

I shall be free free

Free of those voices inside me

I shall be free

I shall be free

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 3:17

BMI Number: 1776748

Disarm you with a smile

And cut you like you want me to

Cut that little child

Inside of me and such a part of you

Ooh, the years burn

I used to be a little boy

So old in my shoes

And what I choose is my choice

What's a boy supposed to do?

The killer in me is the killer in you

My love

I send this smile over to you

Disarm you with a smile

And leave you like they left me here

To wither in denial

The bitterness of one who's left alone

Ooh, the years burn

Ooh, the years burn, burn, burn

I used to be a little boy

So old in my shoes

And what I choose is my voice

What's a boy supposed to do?

The killer in me is the killer in you

My love

I send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you

Send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you

Send this smile over to you

The killer in me is the killer in you

Send this smile over to you

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 4:22

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2107463

Additional Info: The studiotrack samples the rocket launcher explosion from an id Software's game called Doom. This sound effect points to the relationship between Doom and the Smashing Pumpkins in the "SPISPOPD" (an abbreviation for Smashing Pumpkins Into Small Piles Of Putrid Debris) joke, dating from December 1993. The Doom explosion, mentioned in the liner notes of MCIS, can be heard at the following times: 1:20 / 1:55 / 2:29 / 3:01 / 3:44.

Candy cane walks down

To build a bonfire, to break my fall

My baby, my sweet thing

Just maybe we could lose ourselves this time

King of the horseflies, dark prince of death

His tragic forces are heaven sent

In sweet things, in a lovers breath

In knowing this was meant to be the last

A go-go-kids, a go-go-style

A suck suck kiss, a suck suck smile

As always, in young need

A veiled promise to never die

On dead highways, her black beauties roam

For june angels, so far from home

For a love lost, a faded picture

To tread lightning, to ink the lavender skies

So get on the bomb

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 2:40

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035569

My reflection, dirty mirror

There's no connection to myself

I'm your lover, I'm your zero

I'm the face in your dreams of glass

So save your prayers

For when we're really gonna need 'em

Throw out your cares and fly

Wanna go for a ride?

She's the one for me

She's all I really need

Cause she's the one for me

Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness

And cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me

Intoxicated with the madness, I'm in love with my sadness

Bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms

The fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth

I never let on, that I was on a sinking ship

I never let on that I was down

You blame yourself, for what you can't ignore

You blame yourself for wanting more

She's the one for me

She's all I really need

She's the one for me

She's my one and only

(An Ode To No One) live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 4:50

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035606

I'm never coming back

I'm never giving in

I'll never be the shine in your spit

I disconnect the act

I disconnect the dots

I disconnect the me in me

And you're mistaken, it's you that's faking

Living and breathing and dying too

This message is for anyone who dares to hear a fool

You can't bring me back, you can't bring me back

Cause I give it all back to you

Thru sacred alleys, the living wrecks

Wreak their havoc upon this world

The disenchanted, the romantics,

The body and face and soul of you is gone down that deep black hole

Destroy the mind-destroy the body-but you cannot destroy the heart

And you, you make me so I need to disconnect

And you make it so real

I don't need you love to disconnect

To runaround kids in get-go cars

With vaseline afterbirths and neon coughs

Galaxies full of nobodies

Giving us the farewell runarounds

I took a virgin mary axe to his sweet baby jane,

Lost my innocence to a no good girl,

Scratch my face with anvil hands,

And coil my tongue around a bumblebee mouth

And I give it all back to you

No way, I don't need it, I don't need your love to disconnect

And you make it, so real, I don't need your love to disconnect

No way to disconnect

And you make it so real

I don't need your love to disconnect

No way to disconnect

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 3:45

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 1995914

The useless drag of another day

The endless drags of a death rock boy

Mascara sure and lipstick lost

Glitter burned by restless thoughts

Of being forgotten

And in your sad machines

You'll forever stay

Desperate and displeased-with whoever you are

And you're a star

Somewhere-he pulls his hair down-over a frowning smile

A hidden diamond you cannot find

A secret star that cannot shine over to you

May the king of gloom, be forever doomed

And in your sad machines

You'll forever stay

Burning up in speed

Lost inside the dreams, of teen machines

The useless drags, the empty days

The lonely towers of long mistakes

To forgotten faces and faded loves

Sitting still was never enough

And if you're giving in, then you're giving up

Cause in your sad machines

You'll forever stay

Burning up in speed

Lost inside the dreams, of teen machines

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 4:16

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 1995911

Ten times removed

I forget about where it all began

Bastard son of a bastard son of

A wild eyed child of the sun

And right as rain, I'm not the same but

I feel the same, I feel nothing

Holding back the fool again

Holding back the fool pretends

I forget to forget nothing is important

Holding back the fool again

I sensed my loss

Before I even learned to talk

And I remember my birthdays

Empty party afternoons won't come back

Holding back the fool again

Holding back the fool pretends

I forget to forget nothing is important

Holding back the fool again

I forget to forget me

I forget to forget you see

Nothing is important to me

I knew my loss

Before I even learned to speak

And all along, I knew it was wrong

But I played along, with my birthday song

Holding back the fool again

Holding back the fool pretends

I forget to forget nothing is important

Holding back the fool again

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 4:16

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 1995912

The world is a vampire, sent to drain

Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames

And what do I get, for my pain

Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game

Even though I know-i suppose I'll show

All my cool and cold-like old job

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal

But can you fake it, for just one more show

And what do you want, I want to change

And what have you got

When you feel the same

Even though I know-i suppose I'll show

All my cool and cold-like old job

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Tell me I'm the only one

Tell me there's no other one

Jesus was an only son

Tell me I'm the chosen one

Jesus was an only son for you

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

And I still believe that I cannot be saved

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 7:38

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2107451

Wrap me up in always, and drag me in with maybes

Your innocence is treasure, your innocence is death

Your innocence is all I have

Breathing underwater, and living under glass

And if you spin your love around

The secrets of your dreams

You may find your love is gone

And is not quite what it seemed

To appear to disappear

Beneath all your darkest fears

I believe in never, I believe in all the way

But belief is not to notice, believe is just some faith

And faith can't help you to escape

And with this ring I wed thee true

And with this ring I wed thee now

And with this ring I play so dead

But no one's asking for the truth, so let me tell you

If you spin your love around

The secrets of your dreams

You may find your love is gone

And is not quite what it seemed

To appear to disappear

Beneath all your darkest fears

To the revelations of fresh faced youth

No one will come to save you

So speak your peace in the murmurs drawn

But youth is wasted on the young

Your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate

My love for you just can't explain

Why we're forever frozen, forever beautiful,

Forever lost inside ourselves

The night has come to hold us young

live 1996.02.10

Track Length: 4:46

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 1995916

Ain't it funny how we pretend we're still a child

Softly stolen under our blanket skies

And rescue me from me, and all that I believe

I won't deny the pain

I won't deny the change

And should I fall from grace here with you

Will you leave me too?

Carve out your heart for keeps in an old oak tree

And hold me for goodbyes-and-whispered lullabyes

And tell me I am still

The man I'm supposed to be

I won't deny the pain

I won't deny the change