live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 4:12

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2107455

Sleep will not come to this tired body now

Peace will not come to this lonely heart

There are some things I'll live without

But I want you to know that I need you right now

I need you tonite

I steal a kiss from her sleeping shadow moves

Cause I'll always miss her wherever she goes

And I'll always need her more than she could ever need me

I need someone to ease my mind

But sometimes a someone is so hard to find

And I'll do anything to keep her here tonite

And I'll say anything to make her feel alright

And I'll be anything to keep her here tonite

Cause I want you to stay, with me

I need you tonite

She comes to me like an angel out of time

As I play the part of a saint on my knees

There are some things I'll live without

But I want you to know that I need you right now

Suffer my desire

Suffer my desire

Suffer my desire for you

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 2:50

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2114422

Cupid hath pulled back his sweetheart's bow

To cast divine arrows into her soul

To grab her attention swift and quick

Or morrow the marrow of her bones be thick

With turpentine kisses and mistaken blows

See the devil may do as the devil may care

He loves none sweeter as sweeter the dare

Her mouth the mischief he doth seek

Her heart the captive of which he speaks

So note all ye lovers in love with the sound

Your world be shattered with nary a note

Of one cupids arrow under your coat

And in the land of star crossed lovers

And barren hearted wanderers

Forever lost in forsaken missives and satan's pull

We seek the unseekable and we speak the unspeakable

Our hopes dead gathering dust to dust

In faith, in compassion, and in love

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 4:10

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 1995895

Speak to me in a language I can hear

Humour me before I have to go

Deep in thought I forgive everyone

As the cluttered streets greet me once again

I know I can't be late, supper's waiting on the table

Tomorrow's just an excuse away

So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own

The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet

At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk

Steeple guide me to my heart and home

The sun is out and up and down again

I know I'll make it, love can last forever

Graceful swans of never topple to the earth

And you can make it last, forever you

You can make it last, forever you

And for a moment I lose myself

Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world

I've journeyed here and there and back again

But in the same old haunts I still find my friends

Mysteries not ready to reveal

Sympathies I'm ready to return

I'll make the effort, love can last forever

Graceful swans of never topple to the earth

Tomorrow's just an excuse

And you can make it last, forever you

You can make it last, forever you

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 3:10

Additional Info:

Cover of Stevie Nicks.

I took my love and took it down

I climbed a mountain, I turned around

And I saw my reflection in a snow covered hill

Till the landslide brought it down

Mirror in the sky, what is love

Can the child within my heart rise above

Can I sail through the changing ocean tides

Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I've

Built my life around you

Time makes you bolder

Even children get older

And I'm getting older too

Well, I've been afraid of changing 'cause I've

Built my life around you

Time makes you bolder

Even children get older

And I'm getting older too

I'm getting older too

I took my love and took it down

I climbed a mountain, I turned around

And if you see my reflection in a snow covered hill

The landslide brought it down

The landslide brought it down

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 3:19

BMI Number: 1776114

Today is the greatest

Day I've ever known

Can't live for tomorrow,

Tomorrow's much too long

I'll burn my eyes out

Before I get out

I wanted more

Than life could ever grant me

Bored by the chore

Of saving face

Today is the greatest

Day I've ever known

Can't wait for tomorrow

I might not have that long

I'll tear my heart out

Before I get out

Pink ribbon scars

That never forget

I tried so hard

To cleanse these regrets

My angel wings

Were bruised and restrained

My belly stings

Today is

Today is

Today is

The greatest day

I want to turn you on

I want to turn you on

I want to turn you on

I want to turn you

Today is the greatest

Today is the greatest day

Today is the greatest day

That I have ever really known

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 6:40

Written By: Billy Corgan + James Iha

BMI Number: 1776129

Nothing left to say

And all I've left to do

Is run away

From you

And she led me on, down

With secrets I can't keep

Close your eyes and sleep

Don't wait up for me

Hush now don't you speak

To me

Wrapped my hurt in you

And took my shelter in that pain

The opiate of blame

Is your broken heart, your heart

So now I'm all by myself

As I've always felt

I'll betray my tears

To anyone caught in our ruse of fools

One last kiss for me...yeah

One last kiss good night

Didn't want to lose you once again

Didn't want to be your friend

Fulfilled a promise made of tin

And crawled back to you

I'm all by myself

As I've always felt

I'll betray myself

To anyone, lost, anyone but you

So let the sadness come again

On that you can depend on me, yeah

Until the bitter, bitter end of the world, yeah

When god sleeps in bliss

And I'm all by myself

As I've always felt

And I'll betray myself

To anyone

TV clip: "...and you need to resist the devil so that he will flee"

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 2:52

Written By: James Iha

BMI Number: 2107376

Take me down, to the underground

Won't you take me down, to the underground

Why oh why, there is no light

And if I can't sleep, can you hold my life

And all I see is you

Take my hand, I lost where I began

In my heart I know all of my faults

Will you help me understand

And I believe in you

You're the other half of me

Soothe and heal...

When you sleep, when you dream,

I'll be there if you need me, whenever I hear you sing...

There is a sun, it'll come, the sun, I hear them call me down

I held you once, a love that once, and life had just begun

And you're all I see...

And trumpets blew, and angels flew on the other side

And you're all I see, and you're all I'll need

There's a love that god puts in your heart

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 4:18

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035554

Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sun

Wonderful, you're wonderful, as wonderful as they come

And I can't help but feel attached

To the feelings I can't even match

With my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you

Beautiful, you're beautiful, as beautiful as the sky

Wonderful, it's wonderful, to know that you're just like I

And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't

But you just can't tell

Who you love and who you won't

And I love you, as you love me

So let the clouds roll by your face

We'll let the world spin on to another place

We'll climb the tallest tree above it all

To look down on you and me and them

And I'm sure you know me well, as I'm sure you don't

But you just can't tell, who you'll love and who you won't

Don't let your life wrap up around you

Don't forget to call, whenever

I'll be here just waiting for you

I'll be under your stars forever

Neither here nor there just right beside you

I'll be under the stairs forever

Neither here nor there just right beside you

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 4:06

BMI Number: 1776746

Bleed in your own light

Dream of your own life

I miss me

I miss everything I'll never be

And on, and on

I torch my soul to show

The world that I am pure

Deep inside my heart

No more lies

A crown of horns

An image formed deformed

The mark I've borne

A mark of scorn to you

Consume my love, devour my hate

Only powers my escape

The moon is out, the stars invite

I think I'll leave tonight

So soon I'll find myself alone

To relax and fade away

Do you know what's coming down

Do you know I couldn't stay free?

I shall be free

I shall be free

I shall be free

I shall be free

I shall be free free

Free of those voices inside me

I shall be free

I shall be free

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 4:46

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 1995916

Ain't it funny how we pretend we're still a child

Softly stolen under our blanket skies

And rescue me from me, and all that I believe

I won't deny the pain

I won't deny the change

And should I fall from grace here with you

Will you leave me too?

Carve out your heart for keeps in an old oak tree

And hold me for goodbyes-and-whispered lullabyes

And tell me I am still

The man I'm supposed to be

I won't deny the pain

I won't deny the change

And should I fall from grace here with you

Will you leave me too?

Too late to turn to turn back now, I'm running out of sound

And I am changing, changing

And if we died right now, this fool you love somehow

Is here with you

I won't deny the pain

I won't deny the change

And should I fall from grace here with you

Would you leave me too?

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 4:22

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2107463

Additional Info: The studiotrack samples the rocket launcher explosion from an id Software's game called Doom. This sound effect points to the relationship between Doom and the Smashing Pumpkins in the "SPISPOPD" (an abbreviation for Smashing Pumpkins Into Small Piles Of Putrid Debris) joke, dating from December 1993. The Doom explosion, mentioned in the liner notes of MCIS, can be heard at the following times: 1:20 / 1:55 / 2:29 / 3:01 / 3:44.

Candy cane walks down

To build a bonfire, to break my fall

My baby, my sweet thing

Just maybe we could lose ourselves this time

King of the horseflies, dark prince of death

His tragic forces are heaven sent

In sweet things, in a lovers breath

In knowing this was meant to be the last

A go-go-kids, a go-go-style

A suck suck kiss, a suck suck smile

As always, in young need

A veiled promise to never die

On dead highways, her black beauties roam

For june angels, so far from home

For a love lost, a faded picture

To tread lightning, to ink the lavender skies

So get on the bomb

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 2:40

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035569

My reflection, dirty mirror

There's no connection to myself

I'm your lover, I'm your zero

I'm the face in your dreams of glass

So save your prayers

For when we're really gonna need 'em

Throw out your cares and fly

Wanna go for a ride?

She's the one for me

She's all I really need

Cause she's the one for me

Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness

And cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me

Intoxicated with the madness, I'm in love with my sadness

Bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms

The fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth

I never let on, that I was on a sinking ship

I never let on that I was down

You blame yourself, for what you can't ignore

You blame yourself for wanting more

She's the one for me

She's all I really need

She's the one for me

She's my one and only

(An Ode To No One) live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 4:50

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035606

I'm never coming back

I'm never giving in

I'll never be the shine in your spit

I disconnect the act

I disconnect the dots

I disconnect the me in me

And you're mistaken, it's you that's faking

Living and breathing and dying too

This message is for anyone who dares to hear a fool

You can't bring me back, you can't bring me back

Cause I give it all back to you

Thru sacred alleys, the living wrecks

Wreak their havoc upon this world

The disenchanted, the romantics,

The body and face and soul of you is gone down that deep black hole

Destroy the mind-destroy the body-but you cannot destroy the heart

And you, you make me so I need to disconnect

And you make it so real

I don't need you love to disconnect

To runaround kids in get-go cars

With vaseline afterbirths and neon coughs

Galaxies full of nobodies

Giving us the farewell runarounds

I took a virgin mary axe to his sweet baby jane,

Lost my innocence to a no good girl,

Scratch my face with anvil hands,

And coil my tongue around a bumblebee mouth

And I give it all back to you

No way, I don't need it, I don't need your love to disconnect

And you make it, so real, I don't need your love to disconnect

No way to disconnect

And you make it so real

I don't need your love to disconnect

No way to disconnect

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 4:21

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 2035555

To my mistakes, to my mistakes of cowardice

She shimmy shakes, the jimmy jakes of consequence

Born of the airs and dues, my airs of madness do declare

That it's ok, it's love

It's what you wanted to see, it's who you wanted to be

For what you needed to need, she'll make it up

Love, it's who you know

Machine gun blues, her vacant rush is so steel

I'm unaware, lost inside your visions

I got mine too over, I got mine and I got you

Cause I know you, you're love

It's what you wanted to see, it's who you wanted to be

For what you needed to need, she'll make it up

Love, it's who you know

Can I look up to you as you look down on me

Can I feel in to you as you felt in to me

I can't help what you see, I can't help but to be

For what you needed to need, she'll make it

Love, it's who you know

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 4:16

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 1995911

Ten times removed

I forget about where it all began

Bastard son of a bastard son of

A wild eyed child of the sun

And right as rain, I'm not the same but

I feel the same, I feel nothing

Holding back the fool again

Holding back the fool pretends

I forget to forget nothing is important

Holding back the fool again

I sensed my loss

Before I even learned to talk

And I remember my birthdays

Empty party afternoons won't come back

Holding back the fool again

Holding back the fool pretends

I forget to forget nothing is important

Holding back the fool again

I forget to forget me

I forget to forget you see

Nothing is important to me

I knew my loss

Before I even learned to speak

And all along, I knew it was wrong

But I played along, with my birthday song

Holding back the fool again

Holding back the fool pretends

I forget to forget nothing is important

Holding back the fool again

live 1996.02.09

Additional Info:

Cover of Pearl Jam.

Son, she said, have I got a little story for you

What you thought was your daddy was nothin' but a...

While you were sittin' home alone at age thirteen

Your real daddy was dyin', sorry you didn't see him, but I'm glad we talked...

Oh I, oh, I'm still alive

Hey, I, I, oh, I'm still alive

Hey I, oh, I'm still alive

Hey...oh...

Oh, she walks slowly, across a young man's room

She said I'm ready...for you

I can't remember anything to this very day

'Cept the look, the look...

Oh, you know where, now I can't see, I just stare...

I, I'm still alive

Hey I, but, I'm still alive

Hey I, boy, I'm still alive

Hey I, I, I, I'm still alive, yeah

Ooh yeah...yeah yeah yeah...oh...oh...

Is something wrong, she said

Well of course there is

You're still alive, she said

Oh, and do I deserve to be

Is that the question

And if so...if so...who answers...who answers...

I, oh, I'm still alive

Hey I, oh, I'm still alive

Hey I, but, I'm still alive

Yeah I, ooh, I'm still alive

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

live 1996.02.09

Track Length: 4:16

Written By: Billy Corgan

BMI Number: 1995912

The world is a vampire, sent to drain

Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames

And what do I get, for my pain

Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game

Even though I know-i suppose I'll show

All my cool and cold-like old job

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal

But can you fake it, for just one more show

And what do you want, I want to change

And what have you got

When you feel the same

Even though I know-i suppose I'll show

All my cool and cold-like old job

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved