Item Details
- Item Category:
- Album
- Artist:
- Smashing Pumpkins
- Format:
- Cassette
- Release Type:
- Promotional
- Release Date:
- 1995.08.04
- Release Country:
- United States
- Manufacture Country:
- United States
- Package:
- Box, Plastic
- Label:
- Inc., Virgin Records America
- Release Code:
- Master Mixes
- UPC:
- Matrix Code:
- Other Code:
- RPM:
- Amount Pressed:
- 1
Additional Information
Early internal promotional cassette for Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness. Note the different song titles and numerous misspellings.
It appears these songs were finished on July 25th, 1995, however, the cassette was not duplicated until approximately one week later.
Item Art
Track List
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Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness
- 1 . Thirty-Three
Details
Title extra: 1995 MCIS version
Length: 4:10
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995895
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Speak to me in a language I can hear
Humour me before I have to go
Deep in thought I forgive everyone
As the cluttered streets greet me once again
I know I can’t be late, supper’s waiting on the table
Tomorrow’s just an excuse away
So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
Steeple guide me to my heart and home
The sun is out and up and down again
I know I’ll make it, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you
And for a moment I lose myself
Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
I’ve journeyed here and there and back again
But in the same old haunts I still find my friends
Mysteries not ready to reveal
Sympathies I’m ready to return
I’ll make the effort, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
Tomorrow’s just an excuse
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you - 2 . Cupid De Locke
Lyrics
Cupid hath pulled back his sweetheart’s bow
To cast divine arrows into her soul
To grab her attention swift and quick
Or morrow the marrow of her bones be thick
With turpentine kisses and mistaken blows
See the devil may do as the devil may care
He loves none sweeter as sweeter the dare
Her mouth the mischief he doth seek
Her heart the captive of which he speaks
So note all ye lovers in love with the sound
Your world be shattered with nary a note
Of one cupids arrow under your coat
And in the land of star crossed lovers
And barren hearted wanderers
Forever lost in forsaken missives and satan’s pull
We seek the unseekable and we speak the unspeakable
Our hopes dead gathering dust to dust
In faith, in compassion, and in love - 3 . X.Y.U.
Lyrics
She didn’t wanna be, she didn’t wanna know
She couldn’t run away cause she was crazy
She gave it all away, she saw her baby break
And in the air it hung that she was dull razors
And I said, I wanna fill you up, I wanna break you, I wanna give you up
From one another, another one should come to one another
No one should come between us
Still I was lonely, and she was by my side, my one and only
Knows that she could never hide
I couldn’t feel her, and it was just a game,
Cause I was lonely and she was crazy
Rat-tat-tat, ka boom boom, now take that, and just a bit of this
Cause I’m a watcher, and I’m a doer of none
Come to save you, cause you’re all mine
I hurt where I can’t feel, I feel where I can’t hurt
I know where I can’t know, I bleed for me and mine
Ka-boom, a rat-tat-tat, and some good ole bliss
Cause I’m a sister, and I’m a motherfuck
I am made of shamrocks, I am made of stern stuff
I am never enough, I am the forgotten child
And I said I wanna fill you up, I wanna break you, I wanna give you up
From one another, no one should ever come
In between us, between us and our love
Mary had a little lamb, her face was white as snow
And everywhere that mary went I was sure to go
Now mary’s got a problem, and mary’s not a stupid girl
Mary’s got some deep shit, and mary does not forget
And this is how mary’s garden grows, and this is how mary has her ghosts
And into the eyes of the jackyl I say ka-boom
Now we begin descent, to where we’ve never been
There is no going back, this wasn’t meant to last
This is a hell on earth, we are meant to serve
And she will never learn
Bye bye, baby goodbye
- 4 . In The Arms Of Sleep
Lyrics
Sleep will not come to this tired body now
Peace will not come to this lonely heart
There are some things I’ll live without
But I want you to know that I need you right now
I need you tonite
I steal a kiss from her sleeping shadow moves
Cause I’ll always miss her wherever she goes
And I’ll always need her more than she could ever need me
I need someone to ease my mind
But sometimes a someone is so hard to find
And I’ll do anything to keep her here tonite
And I’ll say anything to make her feel alright
And I’ll be anything to keep her here tonite
Cause I want you to stay, with me
I need you tonite
She comes to me like an angel out of time
As I play the part of a saint on my knees
There are some things I’ll live without
But I want you to know that I need you right now
Suffer my desire
Suffer my desire
Suffer my desire for you
- 5 . Fuck You
Details
Title extra: (An Ode To No One)
Length: 4:50
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 2035606
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I’m never coming back
I’m never giving in
I’ll never be the shine in your spit
I disconnect the act
I disconnect the dots
I disconnect the me in me
And you’re mistaken, it’s you that’s faking
Living and breathing and dying too
This message is for anyone who dares to hear a fool
You can’t bring me back, you can’t bring me back
Cause I give it all back to you
Thru sacred alleys, the living wrecks
Wreak their havoc upon this world
The disenchanted, the romantics,
The body and face and soul of you is gone down that deep black hole
Destroy the mind-destroy the body-but you cannot destroy the heart
And you, you make me so I need to disconnect
And you make it so real
I don’t need you love to disconnect
To runaround kids in get-go cars
With Vaseline afterbirths and neon coughs
Galaxies full of nobodies
Giving us the farewell runarounds
I took a virgin Mary ax to his sweet baby Jane,
Lost my innocence to a no good girl,
Scratch my face with anvil hands,
And coil my tongue around a bumblebee mouth
And I give it all back to you
No way, I don’t need it, I don’t need your love to disconnect
And you make it, so real, I don’t need your love to disconnect
No way to disconnect
And you make it so real
I don’t need your love to disconnect
No way to disconnect - 6 . Galapogos
Details
Title extra: 1995 MCIS version
Length: 4:46
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995916
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Ain’t it funny how we pretend we’re still a child
Softly stolen under our blanket skies
And rescue me from me, and all that I believe
I won’t deny the pain
I won’t deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Will you leave me too?
Carve out your heart for keeps in an old oak tree
And hold me for goodbyes-and-whispered lullabyes
And tell me I am still
The man I’m supposed to be
I won’t deny the pain
I won’t deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Will you leave me too?
Too late to turn to turn back now, I’m running out of sound
And I am changing, changing
And if we died right now, this fool you love somehow
Is here with you
I won’t deny the pain
I won’t deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Would you leave me too? - 7 . Love
Details
Title extra: 1995 MCIS version
Length: 4:21
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 2035555
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To my mistakes, to my mistakes of cowardice
She shimmy shakes, the jimmy jakes of consequence
Born of the airs and dues, my airs of madness do declare
That it’s ok, it’s love
It’s what you wanted to see, it’s who you wanted to be
For what you needed to need, she’ll make it up
Love, it’s who you know
Machine gun blues, her vacant rush is so steel
I’m unaware, lost inside your visions
I got mine too over, I got mine and I got you
Cause I know you, you’re love
It’s what you wanted to see, it’s who you wanted to be
For what you needed to need, she’ll make it up
Love, it’s who you know
Can I look up to you as you look down on me
Can I feel in to you as you felt in to me
I can’t help what you see, I can’t help but to be
For what you needed to need, she’ll make it
Love, it’s who you know - 8 . Bodies
Lyrics
Cast the pearls aside, of a simple life of need
Come into my life forever
The crumbled cities stand as known
Of the sights you have been shown
Of the hurt you call your own
Love is suicide
The empty bodies stand at rest
Casualties of their own flesh
Afflicted by their dispossession
But no bodies ever knew
Nobody’s
No bodies felt like you
Nobody’s
Love is suicide
Now we drive the night, to the ironies of peace
You can’t help deny forever
The tragedies reside in you
The secret sights hide in you
The lonely nights divide you in two
All my blisters now revealed
In the darkness of my dreams
In the spaces in between us
But no bodies ever knew
Nobody’s
No bodies felt like you
Nobody’s
Love is suicide - 9 . Jellybelly
Lyrics
Welcome to nowhere fast
Nothing here ever lasts
Nothing but memories
Of what never was
We’re nowhere, we’re nowhere, we’re nowhere to be
Nowhere, we’re nowhere, we’re nowhere to see
Living makes me sick
So sick I wish I’d die
Down in the belly of the beast
I can’t lie
You’re nowhere, you’re nowhere, you’re nowhere to be
Nowhere, you’re nowhere, you’re nowhere to see
There’s nothing left to do
There’s nothing left to feel
Doesn’t matter what you want, so
To make yourself feel better
You make it so you’ll never
Give in to your forevers
And live for always
And forever, forever, you’re forever to be
Forever, forever, you’re forever to me
- 10 . Porcelina Of The Vast Oceans
Lyrics
As far as you take me, that’s where I believe
The realm of soft delusions, floating on the leaves
On a distant shoreline, she waves her arms to me
As all the thought police, are closing in for sleep
The dilly dally, of my bright lit stay
The steam of my misfortunes
Has given me the power to be afraid
And in my mind I’m everyone
And in my mind
Without a care in this whole world
Without a care in this life
It’s what you take that makes it right
Porcelina of the oceans blue
In the slipstream, of thoughtless thoughts
The light of all that’s good, the light of all that’s true
To the fringes gladly, I walk unadorned
With gods and their creations
With filth and disease
Porcelina, she waits for me there
With seashell hissing lullabyes
And whispers fathomed deep inside my own
Hidden thoughts and alibis
My secret thoughts come alive
Without a care in this whole world
Without a care in this life
It’s what you take that makes it right
And in my mind I’m everyone
In my mind I’m everyone of you
You make it right
It’s all allright
You make it right
Porcelina of the oceans blue
- 11 . Beautiful
Lyrics
Beautiful, you’re beautiful, as beautiful as the sun
Wonderful, you’re wonderful, as wonderful as they come
And I can’t help but feel attached
To the feelings I can’t even match
With my face pressed up to the glass, wanting you
Beautiful, you’re beautiful, as beautiful as the sky
Wonderful, it’s wonderful, to know that you’re just like I
And I’m sure you know me well, as I’m sure you don’t
But you just can’t tell
Who you love and who you won’t
And I love you, as you love me
So let the clouds roll by your face
We’ll let the world spin on to another place
We’ll climb the tallest tree above it all
To look down on you and me and them
And I’m sure you know me well, as I’m sure you don’t
But you just can’t tell, who you’ll love and who you won’t
Don’t let your life wrap up around you
Don’t forget to call, whenever
I’ll be here just waiting for you
I’ll be under your stars forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you
I’ll be under the stairs forever
Neither here nor there just right beside you - 12 . Bullet With Butterfly Wings
Details
Title extra: 1995 MCIS version
Length: 4:16
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995912
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The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get, for my pain
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game
Even though I know-i suppose I’ll show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Now I’m naked, nothing but an animal
But can you fake it, for just one more show
And what do you want, I want to change
And what have you got
When you feel the same
Even though I know-i suppose I’ll show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Tell me I’m the only one
Tell me there’s no other one
Jesus was an only son
Tell me I’m the chosen one
Jesus was an only son for you
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
And I still believe that I cannot be saved - 13 . To Forgive
Details
Title extra: 1995 MCIS version
Length: 4:16
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995911
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Ten times removed
I forget about where it all began
Bastard son of a bastard son of
A wild eyed child of the sun
And right as rain, I’m not the same but
I feel the same, I feel nothing
Holding back the fool again
Holding back the fool pretends
I forget to forget nothing is important
Holding back the fool again
I sensed my loss
Before I even learned to talk
And I remember my birthdays
Empty party afternoons won’t come back
Holding back the fool again
Holding back the fool pretends
I forget to forget nothing is important
Holding back the fool again
I forget to forget me
I forget to forget you see
Nothing is important to me
I knew my loss
Before I even learned to speak
And all along, I knew it was wrong
But I played along, with my birthday song
Holding back the fool again
Holding back the fool pretends
I forget to forget nothing is important
Holding back the fool again - 14 . Zero
Lyrics
My reflection, dirty mirror
There’s no connection to myself
I’m your lover, I’m your zero
I’m the face in your dreams of glass
So save your prayers
For when we’re really gonna need ’em
Throw out your cares and fly
Wanna go for a ride?
She’s the one for me
She’s all I really need
Cause she’s the one for me
Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness
And cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me
Intoxicated with the madness, I’m in love with my sadness
Bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms
The fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth
I never let on, that I was on a sinking ship
I never let on that I was down
You blame yourself, for what you can’t ignore
You blame yourself for wanting more
She’s the one for me
She’s all I really need
She’s the one for me
She’s my one and only
- 15 . Thru The Eyes Of Ruby
Lyrics
Wrap me up in always, and drag me in with maybes
Your innocence is treasure, your innocence is death
Your innocence is all I have
Breathing underwater, and living under glass
And if you spin your love around
The secrets of your dreams
You may find your love is gone
And is not quite what it seemed
To appear to disappear
Beneath all your darkest fears
I believe in never, I believe in all the way
But belief is not to notice, believe is just some faith
And faith can’t help you to escape
And with this ring I wed thee true
And with this ring I wed thee now
And with this ring I play so dead
But no one’s asking for the truth, so let me tell you
If you spin your love around
The secrets of your dreams
You may find your love is gone
And is not quite what it seemed
To appear to disappear
Beneath all your darkest fears
To the revelations of fresh faced youth
No one will come to save you
So speak your peace in the murmurs drawn
But youth is wasted on the young
Your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate
My love for you just can’t explain
Why we’re forever frozen, forever beautiful,
Forever lost inside ourselves
The night has come to hold us young
- 16 . Stumbleine
Details
Title extra: 1995 MCIS version
Length: 2:54
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995905
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Boredom’s in the bathroom shaking out the loose teeth
Sally’s in the stirrups claiming her destiny
And nobody nowhere understands anything
About me and all my dreams
Lost at sea
Jack it up Judy set your heart alight
Mayfair mistress of the satellites
Misspent youth- faking up a rampage
To hold off the real slaves
Paid off and staid
And what you never knew
Can never get to you
So fake it
I’ll be your stumbleine
I’ll be your super queen
And make you
Jukebox fuckup hanging round the drugstore
No matter what you say he’ll be back for more
Mommy’s in the manger with the little kids
She’s got her reasons, got my forgets
Of tears and idle threats
Misplaced
And no matter what they do
They can’t get to you
So fake it
I’ll be your stumbleine
I’ll be your super queen
And make you me
Come around ruby I could never sleep alone - 17 . Tonite Reprise
Lyrics
And the embers never fade in my city by the lake
The place where I was born
As the wind-up toys wind down
Muffling the sound of a life hidden underground
Believe, believe in me
Believe
That you can change, that you’re not stuck in vain
We’re not the same, we’re different tonite
We’ll the crucify the insincere tonite
We’ll make things right, we’ll feel it all tonite
The impossible is possible tonite
Believe in me like I believe in you tonite
- 18 . We Only Come Out At Night
Lyrics
We only come out at night, the days are much too bright
We only come out at night
And once again, you’ll pretend to know me well, my friends
And once again, I’ll pretend to know the way
Thru the empty space
Thru the secret places of the heart
We only come out at night, the days are much too bright
We only come out at night
I walk alone, I walk alone to find the way home
I’m on my own, I’m on my own to see the ways
That I can’t help the days, you will make it home o.k
I know you can, and you can
We only come out at night, the days are much too bright
We only come out at night
And once again, you’ll pretend to know that
There’s an end, that there’s an end to this begin
It will help you sleep at night
It will make it seem that right is always right
Alright?
We only come out at night
- 1 . Thirty-Three
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