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Sadlands (Billy Corgan’s Home Studio)

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1994.10.??
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Fall 1994


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Sadlands Fall 1994 version

Length: 2:51

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995905

Additional Info: Early 1994 demo version, played acoustic.

Boredom's in the bathroom shaking out the loose teeth

Sally's in the stirrups claiming her destiny

And nobody nowhere understands anything

About me and all my dreams

Lost at sea

Jack it up judy set your heart alight

Mayfair mistress of the satellites

Misspent youth- faking up a rampage

To hold off the real slaves

Paid off and staid

And what you never knew

Can never get to you

So fake it

I'll be your stumbleine

I'll be your super queen

And make you

Jukebox fuckup hanging round the drugstore

No matter what you say he'll be back for more

Mommy's in the manger with the little kids

She's got her reasons, got my forgets

Of tears and idle threats

Misplaced

And no matter what they do

They can't get to you

So fake it

I'll be your stumbleine

I'll be your super queen

And make you me

Come around ruby I could never sleep alone

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Version: Stumbleine 1995 MCIS version
Version: Stumbleine 1995 MCIS version

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Version: Stumbleine Sadlands Fall 1994 version

Length: 2:32

BMI Number: 1995906

Additional Info: Acoustic.

Gone, long gone

Blink and I’ll be gone, gone, gone

Leave this world of wrong, wrong, wrong

Leave it far behind

And although my secret’s gone

I’ll try to carry on

If I must, I’ll get along

Without you

Gone, long gone

Leave this world of wrong, wrong, wrong

Beyond the pale, beyond the dawn

Flee these mortal bonds

No one knows I can’t be wrong

So I’ll sing the same old song

I tried to be strong

For you

Why have you left me?

Amongst the tall trees

I know I gave her all I have

And I tied her heart in ribbons

Tied her heart in ribbons

Tied her heart in ribbons

And bows

And I’m gone

Oh yes, I’m gone

And I’m lost without you

I’m lost within you

And I’m gone

So gone

Long gone

(My One And Only) Sadlands Fall 1994 version

Length: 3:19

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995908

Additional Info: Early title for Lily (My One And Only). Acoustic version.

Lily, my one and only

I can hardly wait till I see her

Silly, I know I'm silly

Cause I'm hanging in this tree

In the hopes that she will catch a glimpse of me

And thru her window shade

I watch her shadow move

I wonder if she.......?

Lily, my one and only

Love is in my heart and in your eyes

Will she or won't she want him

No one knows for sure

But an officer is knocking at my door

And thru her window shade

I watch her shadow move

I wonder if she could only see me?

And when I'm with her I feel fine

If I could kiss her I wouldn't mind the time it took to find

My lily, my one and only

I can hardly wait till I see her

Oh lily, I know you love me

Cause as they're draggin' me away

I swear I saw her raise her hand and wave (goodbye)

Sadlands Fall 1994 version

Length: 3:47

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995911

Additional Info: Acoustic version.

Ten times removed

I forget about where it all began

Bastard son of a bastard son of

A wild eyed child of the sun

And right as rain, I'm not the same but

I feel the same, I feel nothing

Holding back the fool again

Holding back the fool pretends

I forget to forget nothing is important

Holding back the fool again

I sensed my loss

Before I even learned to talk

And I remember my birthdays

Empty party afternoons won't come back

Holding back the fool again

Holding back the fool pretends

I forget to forget nothing is important

Holding back the fool again

I forget to forget me

I forget to forget you see

Nothing is important to me

I knew my loss

Before I even learned to speak

And all along, I knew it was wrong

But I played along, with my birthday song

Holding back the fool again

Holding back the fool pretends

I forget to forget nothing is important

Holding back the fool again

Sadlands Fall 1994 version

Length: 4:29

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995912

Additional Info: Acoustic version.

The world is a vampire, sent to drain

Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames

And what do I get, for my pain

Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game

Even though I know-i suppose I'll show

All my cool and cold-like old job

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal

But can you fake it, for just one more show

And what do you want, I want to change

And what have you got

When you feel the same

Even though I know-i suppose I'll show

All my cool and cold-like old job

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

Tell me I'm the only one

Tell me there's no other one

Jesus was an only son

Tell me I'm the chosen one

Jesus was an only son for you

Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage

And I still believe that I cannot be saved

Sadlands Fall 1994 version

Length: 3:40

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995914

Additional Info: Early working title for Here Is No Why. Played acoustic.

The useless drag of another day

The endless drags of a death rock boy

Mascara sure and lipstick lost

Glitter burned by restless thoughts

Of being forgotten

And in your sad machines

You'll forever stay

Desperate and displeased-with whoever you are

And you're a star

Somewhere-he pulls his hair down-over a frowning smile

A hidden diamond you cannot find

A secret star that cannot shine over to you

May the king of gloom, be forever doomed

And in your sad machines

You'll forever stay

Burning up in speed

Lost inside the dreams, of teen machines

The useless drags, the empty days

The lonely towers of long mistakes

To forgotten faces and faded loves

Sitting still was never enough

And if you're giving in, then you're giving up

Cause in your sad machines

You'll forever stay

Burning up in speed

Lost inside the dreams, of teen machines

Sadlands Fall 1994 version

Length: 4:21

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995916

Additional Info: Acoustic version.

Ain't it funny how we pretend we're still a child

Softly stolen under our blanket skies

And rescue me from me, and all that I believe

I won't deny the pain

I won't deny the change

And should I fall from grace here with you

Will you leave me too?

Carve out your heart for keeps in an old oak tree

And hold me for goodbyes-and-whispered lullabyes

And tell me I am still

The man I'm supposed to be

I won't deny the pain

I won't deny the change

And should I fall from grace here with you

Will you leave me too?

Too late to turn to turn back now, I'm running out of sound

And I am changing, changing

And if we died right now, this fool you love somehow

Is here with you

I won't deny the pain

I won't deny the change

And should I fall from grace here with you

Would you leave me too?

Length: 3:07

Additional Info: Instrumental, aka Groove.

Instrumental

Length: 1:36

Additional Info: Also known as Autumna, and often mislabeled as Strolling or Fools We Are.

Rollin’ with the breeze
Do what you please
I guess you’d say
We’ll take the whole day
Skip out of school
Run around and act like
The fools that we are
Ain’t gonna do anyone any harm
Train whistle at our backs
Laid our pennies down the tracks
Forget our cares
I guess you’d say
We’ll take the whole day
Go for a swim
Dry off in the wind
The sun’s goin’ down so we better get back
It’s too easy to stay
So lazy, hazy, maybe crazy
Rollin’ with the breeze
Do what you please
So take it easy, yes, please
Strollin’ with the leave

Length: 2:55

BMI Number: 1995864

I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank
I write a letter to you
And there’d be nothing to it
I wouldn’t hem and haw
On just how to start it
I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank
I wish I’d stand up straight
I wish I’d said things different
I wish I’d said nothing
Things would be so perfect
I wish myself to keep
I pray myself to sleep
I wish myself away
I wish I was blank

Length: 3:02

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995870

Dirty your face

With longing and grace, God-given

Suffer her heart

And love her when your love goes unrequited

Where the cool winds blow

I must surely go

For my love calls me below to drag her

From the depths of my soul

When will I see her again?

The other side of friends

The darkened claws of death

The empty breath desire

Dirty your face

With longing and grace, God-given

Suffer her heart

And love her when your love goes unrequited

Restless in my speech

And ruthless in my teach

So vacant in my breach

I drive the dirt up her garden

Sorrow

She’ll never listen again

No other lovers to bend

Just rotten apples to eat

Just letter yellowed distant scorn

Dirty your face

With longing and grace, God-given

Suffer her heart

And love her when your love goes unrequited

Life just fades away

Purity just begs

Dust to dust, we’re wired into sadness

Length: 2:47

Additional Info: Early title for Ugly. Extra info: "Started as an album song until the very last moment, when Mellon Collies was cut from 31 to 28 songs, this is an interesting interpretation of what had essentially been an acoustic song. Flood and I tried about four different versions before settling on this one [see Queen's Hot Space album]. One version that I liked was just me and a distorted guitar. But in the end this version won, only to be mixed into eternal obscurity as a B-side." -BC (Guitar World 1/97)

I don’t look in the mirror

I don’t like what I see staring back at me

Everything is clearer

I’ll never see what you see

It’s not me

So beautiful and free

I’ll never be what you need

I can’t help it at all

I was born so beautiful

But now I’m ugly

And I rot in my skin

As a piece of me dies everyday

I know I’m nothing

I know there’s nothing I can say

To change

The judgement in their ways

I’ll never be what you need

I can’t help it at all

My love was so beautiful

But now I’m ugly

Yeah…

I’m good enough, but I don’t care

I’m good enough, but I’m not there

I’m good enough, but I don’t care

The sun is out, but I’m not there

(I can go anywhere) I’m good enough, but I don’t care (…somewhere)

(I can go anywhere) The sun is out, but I’m not there (…somewhere)

(I can go anywhere) I’m good enough (…somewhere)

(I can go anywhere) I’m good enough (…somewhere)

I don’t look in the mirror

I don’t like what I see staring back at me

Everything is clearer

I’ll never see what you see

And I rot in my skin

As a piece of me dies everyday

I know I’m nothing

Because I’m ugly

Length: 3:06

Wishing you were real

So I could wish you mine

Wishing you were real

I cling to all that is divine

My woman lies with the dewdrops

My courage with the stars

Wishing you were real

So I could spy you from afar

Aimed at her myths of horseflies

And spider eyes

Spun to her gilded webs of hope

And mercy crimes

Wishing you were real

So I could wish you mine

Wishing you were real

I cling to all that is divine

Wishing you were real

Wishing you were real

We’ll take our secrets to the grave

Safely held beneath the thoughts

The secrets will be lost

While I’m forever not yours

I’m wishing you were real

My face is blistered true

Wishing you were real

So that I could always wish for you

Wishing you were real

Wishing you were real

Wishing you were real

Wishing you were real

Wishing you were real

Sadlands Fall 1994 version

Length: 2:34

Written By:

BMI Number: 2035552

Additional Info: Instrumental, piano only.

Instrumental

Length: 2:41

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995887

Additional Info: It's early title is Doorstep.

And on her doorstep

I saw that I was blind

I’d forsaken

What was mine

What had mattered

Mattered little now

We had shattered

Apart somehow

Ooh

I can’t help but stay the same

I remain true to my name

Time to get up

And take the long walk home

For the first time

I go alone

Do you remember

When we first met?

Chasing down the alleyways

Behind my dad’s

Ooh

I can’t help but stay the same

I remain true to the name

Of lovers past

Good enough to lose

Good enough to choose you, too

Ooh

I can’t help but stay the same

Ooh

I remain true to the name

Of lovers past

Good enough to lose

Good enough to choose you, too

Sadlands Fall 1994 version

Length: 4:14

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995895

Speak to me in a language I can hear

Humour me before I have to go

Deep in thought I forgive everyone

As the cluttered streets greet me once again

I know I can't be late, supper's waiting on the table

Tomorrow's just an excuse away

So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own

The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet

At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk

Steeple guide me to my heart and home

The sun is out and up and down again

I know I'll make it, love can last forever

Graceful swans of never topple to the earth

And you can make it last, forever you

You can make it last, forever you

And for a moment I lose myself

Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world

I've journeyed here and there and back again

But in the same old haunts I still find my friends

Mysteries not ready to reveal

Sympathies I'm ready to return

I'll make the effort, love can last forever

Graceful swans of never topple to the earth

Tomorrow's just an excuse

And you can make it last, forever you

You can make it last, forever you

Length: 2:43

Additional Info: Instrumental part which was eventually incorporated with Beautiful.

Sadlands Fall 1994 version

Length: 3:11

Additional Info: Early demo of Marquis In Spades. The talking part at the beginning is missing here.

And I'd love you to notice

I'm devoted

To destroy for no one

Now it's that time again to take revenge

On all the debutantes and their friends

The bitter charlemagnes so self-absorbed

The bodily remains such a bore

Hey, yeah

Was I good enough to break you

Hey, yeah

And all I see is empty

'Cause now I'm one of them

So adored

The slink of impotence

That money can afford

We know who you are and where you live

Is your innocence all that you can give

Hey, yeah

Was I good enough to break you

Hey, yeah

In the back of the car

The angel dust was given back to the stars

Hey, yeah

Was I good enough to break you

Hey, yeah

And in this fall from grace

We'll meet again

Another time another place

I've been down deep in you and me

Let's see where we can go

Yeah yeah yeah

Angels, barbed wire

Fuck you, desire

Additional Info: Instrumental, included as a clip in Pastichio Medley.

Instrumental

Sadlands Fall 1994 version

Track Length: 3:09

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995919

God knows I'm helpless to speak

On my own behalf

God is as helpless as me

Caught in the negatives

We all just do as we please

False transmissions

I hope god forgives me

For my transgressions

It's what you want

To know no consequences

It's what you need

To fucking bleed

It's all too much

God knows I'm restless and weak

Full of piss and vinegar

God knows we sow what we reap

In the dirt of grandeur

When the darkness comes to me

And it fixes its gaze on me

God knows I'm helpless

It's what you want

To know no consequences

It's what you need

To fucking bleed

It's all to much

God knows I'm helpless

You break your back

For what you can't have

You can't turn back

God knows I'm helpless