Sadlands (Billy Corgan’s Home Studio)
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- Date:
- 1994.10.??
- Location:
- Sadlands (Billy Corgan’s Home Studio), United States
- Type:
- Studio
Additional Information
Fall 1994
SPfreaks Who Attended
Track List
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Sadlands (Billy Corgan’s Home Studio)
- 1 . Stumbleine
Details
Title extra: Sadlands Fall 1994 version
Length: 2:51
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995905
Additional Info: Early 1994 demo version, played acoustic.
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Boredom's in the bathroom shaking out the loose teeth
Sally's in the stirrups claiming her destiny
And nobody nowhere understands anything
About me and all my dreams
Lost at sea
Jack it up judy set your heart alight
Mayfair mistress of the satellites
Misspent youth- faking up a rampage
To hold off the real slaves
Paid off and staid
And what you never knew
Can never get to you
So fake it
I'll be your stumbleine
I'll be your super queen
And make you
Jukebox fuckup hanging round the drugstore
No matter what you say he'll be back for more
Mommy's in the manger with the little kids
She's got her reasons, got my forgets
Of tears and idle threats
Misplaced
And no matter what they do
They can't get to you
So fake it
I'll be your stumbleine
I'll be your super queen
And make you me
Come around ruby I could never sleep alone
- 2 . Jupiter’s Lament
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Gone, long gone
Blink and I’ll be gone, gone, gone
Leave this world of wrong, wrong, wrong
Leave it far behind
And although my secret’s gone
I’ll try to carry on
If I must, I’ll get along
Without you
Gone, long gone
Leave this world of wrong, wrong, wrong
Beyond the pale, beyond the dawn
Flee these mortal bonds
No one knows I can’t be wrong
So I’ll sing the same old song
I tried to be strong
For you
Why have you left me?
Amongst the tall trees
I know I gave her all I have
And I tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons
Tied her heart in ribbons
And bows
And I’m gone
Oh yes, I’m gone
And I’m lost without you
I’m lost within you
And I’m gone
So gone
Long gone
- 3 . Lily
Details
Title extra: (My One And Only) Sadlands Fall 1994 version
Length: 3:19
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995908
Additional Info: Early title for Lily (My One And Only). Acoustic version.
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Lily, my one and only
I can hardly wait till I see her
Silly, I know I'm silly
Cause I'm hanging in this tree
In the hopes that she will catch a glimpse of me
And thru her window shade
I watch her shadow move
I wonder if she.......?
Lily, my one and only
Love is in my heart and in your eyes
Will she or won't she want him
No one knows for sure
But an officer is knocking at my door
And thru her window shade
I watch her shadow move
I wonder if she could only see me?
And when I'm with her I feel fine
If I could kiss her I wouldn't mind the time it took to find
My lily, my one and only
I can hardly wait till I see her
Oh lily, I know you love me
Cause as they're draggin' me away
I swear I saw her raise her hand and wave (goodbye)
- 4 . To Forgive
Details
Title extra: Sadlands Fall 1994 version
Length: 3:47
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995911
Additional Info: Acoustic version.
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Ten times removed
I forget about where it all began
Bastard son of a bastard son of
A wild eyed child of the sun
And right as rain, I'm not the same but
I feel the same, I feel nothing
Holding back the fool again
Holding back the fool pretends
I forget to forget nothing is important
Holding back the fool again
I sensed my loss
Before I even learned to talk
And I remember my birthdays
Empty party afternoons won't come back
Holding back the fool again
Holding back the fool pretends
I forget to forget nothing is important
Holding back the fool again
I forget to forget me
I forget to forget you see
Nothing is important to me
I knew my loss
Before I even learned to speak
And all along, I knew it was wrong
But I played along, with my birthday song
Holding back the fool again
Holding back the fool pretends
I forget to forget nothing is important
Holding back the fool again
- 5 . Bullet With Butterfly Wings
Details
Title extra: Sadlands Fall 1994 version
Length: 4:29
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995912
Additional Info: Acoustic version.
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The world is a vampire, sent to drain
Secret destroyers, hold you up to the flames
And what do I get, for my pain
Betrayed desires, and a piece of the game
Even though I know-i suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Now I'm naked, nothing but an animal
But can you fake it, for just one more show
And what do you want, I want to change
And what have you got
When you feel the same
Even though I know-i suppose I'll show
All my cool and cold-like old job
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Then someone will say what is lost can never be saved
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
Tell me I'm the only one
Tell me there's no other one
Jesus was an only son
Tell me I'm the chosen one
Jesus was an only son for you
Despite all my rage I am still just a rat in a cage
And I still believe that I cannot be saved
- 6 . Here Is No Why
Details
Title extra: Sadlands Fall 1994 version
Length: 3:40
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995914
Additional Info: Early working title for Here Is No Why. Played acoustic.
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The useless drag of another day
The endless drags of a death rock boy
Mascara sure and lipstick lost
Glitter burned by restless thoughts
Of being forgotten
And in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Desperate and displeased-with whoever you are
And you're a star
Somewhere-he pulls his hair down-over a frowning smile
A hidden diamond you cannot find
A secret star that cannot shine over to you
May the king of gloom, be forever doomed
And in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Burning up in speed
Lost inside the dreams, of teen machines
The useless drags, the empty days
The lonely towers of long mistakes
To forgotten faces and faded loves
Sitting still was never enough
And if you're giving in, then you're giving up
Cause in your sad machines
You'll forever stay
Burning up in speed
Lost inside the dreams, of teen machines
- 7 . Galapogos
Details
Title extra: Sadlands Fall 1994 version
Length: 4:21
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995916
Additional Info: Acoustic version.
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Ain't it funny how we pretend we're still a child
Softly stolen under our blanket skies
And rescue me from me, and all that I believe
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Will you leave me too?
Carve out your heart for keeps in an old oak tree
And hold me for goodbyes-and-whispered lullabyes
And tell me I am still
The man I'm supposed to be
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Will you leave me too?
Too late to turn to turn back now, I'm running out of sound
And I am changing, changing
And if we died right now, this fool you love somehow
Is here with you
I won't deny the pain
I won't deny the change
And should I fall from grace here with you
Would you leave me too?
- 8 . Frantic Ab Groove
Lyrics
Instrumental
- 9 . Autumn Nocturne
Details
Length: 1:36
Additional Info: Also known as Autumna, and often mislabeled as Strolling or Fools We Are.
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Rollin’ with the breeze
Do what you please
I guess you’d say
We’ll take the whole day
Skip out of school
Run around and act like
The fools that we are
Ain’t gonna do anyone any harm
Train whistle at our backs
Laid our pennies down the tracks
Forget our cares
I guess you’d say
We’ll take the whole day
Go for a swim
Dry off in the wind
The sun’s goin’ down so we better get back
It’s too easy to stay
So lazy, hazy, maybe crazy
Rollin’ with the breeze
Do what you please
So take it easy, yes, please
Strollin’ with the leave - 10 . Blank
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I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank
I write a letter to you
And there’d be nothing to it
I wouldn’t hem and haw
On just how to start it
I wish I was blank
I wish I was blank
I wish I could thank
I wish I was blank
I wish I’d stand up straight
I wish I’d said things different
I wish I’d said nothing
Things would be so perfect
I wish myself to keep
I pray myself to sleep
I wish myself away
I wish I was blank - 11 . Rotten Apples
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Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited
Where the cool winds blow
I must surely go
For my love calls me below to drag her
From the depths of my soul
When will I see her again?
The other side of friends
The darkened claws of death
The empty breath desire
Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited
Restless in my speech
And ruthless in my teach
So vacant in my breach
I drive the dirt up her garden
Sorrow
She’ll never listen again
No other lovers to bend
Just rotten apples to eat
Just letter yellowed distant scorn
Dirty your face
With longing and grace, God-given
Suffer her heart
And love her when your love goes unrequited
Life just fades away
Purity just begs
Dust to dust, we’re wired into sadness
- 12 . Ugly/Beautiful
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Length: 2:47
Additional Info: Early title for Ugly. Extra info: "Started as an album song until the very last moment, when Mellon Collies was cut from 31 to 28 songs, this is an interesting interpretation of what had essentially been an acoustic song. Flood and I tried about four different versions before settling on this one [see Queen's Hot Space album]. One version that I liked was just me and a distorted guitar. But in the end this version won, only to be mixed into eternal obscurity as a B-side." -BC (Guitar World 1/97)
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I don’t look in the mirror
I don’t like what I see staring back at me
Everything is clearer
I’ll never see what you see
It’s not me
So beautiful and free
I’ll never be what you need
I can’t help it at all
I was born so beautiful
But now I’m ugly
And I rot in my skin
As a piece of me dies everyday
I know I’m nothing
I know there’s nothing I can say
To change
The judgement in their ways
I’ll never be what you need
I can’t help it at all
My love was so beautiful
But now I’m ugly
Yeah…
I’m good enough, but I don’t care
I’m good enough, but I’m not there
I’m good enough, but I don’t care
The sun is out, but I’m not there
(I can go anywhere) I’m good enough, but I don’t care (…somewhere)
(I can go anywhere) The sun is out, but I’m not there (…somewhere)
(I can go anywhere) I’m good enough (…somewhere)
(I can go anywhere) I’m good enough (…somewhere)
I don’t look in the mirror
I don’t like what I see staring back at me
Everything is clearer
I’ll never see what you see
And I rot in my skin
As a piece of me dies everyday
I know I’m nothing
Because I’m ugly
- 13 . Wishing You Were
Lyrics
Wishing you were real
So I could wish you mine
Wishing you were real
I cling to all that is divine
My woman lies with the dewdrops
My courage with the stars
Wishing you were real
So I could spy you from afar
Aimed at her myths of horseflies
And spider eyes
Spun to her gilded webs of hope
And mercy crimes
Wishing you were real
So I could wish you mine
Wishing you were real
I cling to all that is divine
Wishing you were real
Wishing you were real
We’ll take our secrets to the grave
Safely held beneath the thoughts
The secrets will be lost
While I’m forever not yours
I’m wishing you were real
My face is blistered true
Wishing you were real
So that I could always wish for you
Wishing you were real
Wishing you were real
Wishing you were real
Wishing you were real
Wishing you were real
- 14 . Mellon Collie And The Infinite Sadness
Details
Title extra: Sadlands Fall 1994 version
Length: 2:34
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 2035552
Additional Info: Instrumental, piano only.
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Instrumental
- 15 . Meladori Magpie
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Length: 2:41
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995887
Additional Info: It's early title is Doorstep.
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And on her doorstep
I saw that I was blind
I’d forsaken
What was mine
What had mattered
Mattered little now
We had shattered
Apart somehow
Ooh
I can’t help but stay the same
I remain true to my name
Time to get up
And take the long walk home
For the first time
I go alone
Do you remember
When we first met?
Chasing down the alleyways
Behind my dad’s
Ooh
I can’t help but stay the same
I remain true to the name
Of lovers past
Good enough to lose
Good enough to choose you, too
Ooh
I can’t help but stay the same
Ooh
I remain true to the name
Of lovers past
Good enough to lose
Good enough to choose you, too
- 16 . Thirty-Three
Details
Title extra: Sadlands Fall 1994 version
Length: 4:14
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995895
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Speak to me in a language I can hear
Humour me before I have to go
Deep in thought I forgive everyone
As the cluttered streets greet me once again
I know I can't be late, supper's waiting on the table
Tomorrow's just an excuse away
So I pull my collar up and face the cold, on my own
The earth laughs beneath my heavy feet
At the blasphemy in my old jangly walk
Steeple guide me to my heart and home
The sun is out and up and down again
I know I'll make it, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you
And for a moment I lose myself
Wrapped up in the pleasures of the world
I've journeyed here and there and back again
But in the same old haunts I still find my friends
Mysteries not ready to reveal
Sympathies I'm ready to return
I'll make the effort, love can last forever
Graceful swans of never topple to the earth
Tomorrow's just an excuse
And you can make it last, forever you
You can make it last, forever you
- 17 . Ropey Lopey
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Length: 2:43
Additional Info: Instrumental part which was eventually incorporated with Beautiful.
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- 18 . Glamey Glamay
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Title extra: Sadlands Fall 1994 version
Length: 3:11
Additional Info: Early demo of Marquis In Spades. The talking part at the beginning is missing here.
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And I'd love you to notice
I'm devoted
To destroy for no one
Now it's that time again to take revenge
On all the debutantes and their friends
The bitter charlemagnes so self-absorbed
The bodily remains such a bore
Hey, yeah
Was I good enough to break you
Hey, yeah
And all I see is empty
'Cause now I'm one of them
So adored
The slink of impotence
That money can afford
We know who you are and where you live
Is your innocence all that you can give
Hey, yeah
Was I good enough to break you
Hey, yeah
In the back of the car
The angel dust was given back to the stars
Hey, yeah
Was I good enough to break you
Hey, yeah
And in this fall from grace
We'll meet again
Another time another place
I've been down deep in you and me
Let's see where we can go
Yeah yeah yeah
Angels, barbed wire
Fuck you, desire
- 19 . Feelium
Lyrics
Instrumental
- 20 . God
Details
Title extra: Sadlands Fall 1994 version
Track Length: 3:09
Written By: Billy Corgan
BMI Number: 1995919
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God knows I'm helpless to speak
On my own behalf
God is as helpless as me
Caught in the negatives
We all just do as we please
False transmissions
I hope god forgives me
For my transgressions
It's what you want
To know no consequences
It's what you need
To fucking bleed
It's all too much
God knows I'm restless and weak
Full of piss and vinegar
God knows we sow what we reap
In the dirt of grandeur
When the darkness comes to me
And it fixes its gaze on me
God knows I'm helpless
It's what you want
To know no consequences
It's what you need
To fucking bleed
It's all to much
God knows I'm helpless
You break your back
For what you can't have
You can't turn back
God knows I'm helpless
- 1 . Stumbleine
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