Item Details

Smashing Pumpkins Radio

Information

Item Category:
Artist:
Format:
Release Type:
Release Date:
2000.08.14 
Country Released:
Country Manufactured:
Package:
 
Label:
 
Release Code:
www.smashingpumpkins.com 
UPC:
 
Matrix Code:
 
Other Code:
 
Amount Pressed:
Unknown 
Sellers/Traders:
0

Additional Information

With help from SPFC.org:

“SP radio is launched at the official site, featuring two different 24/7 streams, titled Punch Drunk and Dizzy and

Collapsing Cities. A third stream entitled Glass Towers replaces these later on. The streams encompass the band’s career and include such rarities as “My Eternity” studio and “I Want you to Want me.””

The pic shown is the section at www.smashingpumpkins.com where visitors could listen to the tracks in the jukebox. It’s not available anymore, we are not sure when it stopped exactly, probably in 2001 somewhere.



Item Art

My Collection

To access My Collections
Sign In or Register


Tracklist
Track Detail
Lyrics
Also Available On

Collection Items:

Tours & Recordings:

live 2000.??.??

Length: 6:42

Additional Info: Cover of David Essex

Hey kids, rock and roll

Rock on, ooh my soul

Hey kids, it’s no use sleepin’

Lost out, summertime blues

Jump up and die in your blue suede shoes

Hey kids, rock and roll

We’re gonna rock on

Where do we go from here

Which is the way that’s clear

Still looking for that blue jean baby queen

Prettiest girl I’ve ever seen

See her die on my movie screens every day

Rock on

Hey kids, rock and roll

Rock on, ooh my soul

Hey kids it’s no use dreamin’

Lost out and full of doubt

Shut up, cracked out

Hey kids, rock and roll

We’re gonna rock on

Where do we go from here

Which is the way that’s clear

Where do we go from here

Which is the way that’s clear

Still lookin’ for that blue jean baby queen

Prettiest girl I’ve never seen

See her die on my movie screens every day

Rock on

Rock on

Rock on

Rock on

And the cradle will rock

Yes, the cradle, the cradle will rock

I said rock on

Rock on

Everybody wants some

I want some too

Everybody wants some

Hey how about you

I said rock on

Rock on

Rock on

Rock on

Rock on

Rock on

Hey kids, rock and roll

We’re gonna rock on, rock on

To your song

Hey kids, rock and roll

We’re gonna rock on

Rock on

We’re gonna rock on, rock on, rock on

live 2000.??.??

Length: 6:27

BMI Number: 5246441

Unleash the armageddon
So all the children go to heaven
I sit by quiet still
With their pictures on my eyes
You’ll draw the guns you’re given
Write down the words as written
And never disturb the presence
Of resurrection crutch
And it’s about time
It’s about drawing near
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Descend the darkened stairways
Make hate with plastic playmates
And fire out remaining traces
Of your self esteem
Mainline the deepest secrets
Lick clean the dirty fingers
I am a stranger to you
As you are to yourself
And it’s about time
It’s about fear
Blue skies bring tears
Don’t you want me (don’t want you)
As I awake the city sight
We’ll watch the seasons die
Blue skies bring tears
Take me inside your body
Blue skies bring tears
Cover me with your soul
Blue skies bring tears
To the darkest recess
Blue skies bring tears
Is where I wish to go
Blue skies bring tears
You are the sweetest flower
Blue skies bring tears
That I have ever devoured
Blue skies bring tears
I ask for nothing given
Blue skies bring tears
For nothing in return
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears
Blue skies bring tears

live 1996.??.??

Length: 4:43

Written By:

BMI Number: 2035603

By starlight I’ll kiss you
And promise to be your one and only
I’ll make you feel happy
And leave you to be lost in mine
And where will we go, what will we do?
Soon said I, will know
Dead eyes, are you just like me?
Cause her eyes were as vacant as the seas
Dead eyes, are you just like me?
And all along, we knew we’d carry on
Just to belong
By starlight I know you
As lovely as a wish granted true
My life has been empty, my life has been untrue
And does she really know, who I really am?
Does she really know me at last
Dead eyes, are you just like me?

live 2000.??.??

Length: 3:42

BMI Number: 5246440

We dismiss
The backroads
And ride these streets
Unafraid
Resigned to
Scraping paint
From our bones
Unashamed
No more the eye upon you
No more the simple man
Desolation yes
Hesitation no
Desolation yes
Hesitation no
As you might have guessed
All is never shown
Desolation yes
Hesitation no
And in my prayers
I dream alone
A silent speech
To deaf ear
If you want love
You must be love
But if you bleed love
You will die love
No more the lie upon you
Cast in stone and autumn shade
Desolation yes
Hesitation no
Desolation yes
Hesitation no
As you might have sensed
We won’t make it home
Desolation yes
Hesitation no
Before the rites of spring
Come to mean all things
A little taste of what may come
A mere glimpse of what has gone
Cause for the moment we are free
We seek to bind our release
Too young to die, too rich to care
Too fucked to swear that I was there
Desolation yes
Hesitation no
Desolation yes
Hesitation no
As you might have guessed
We won’t make it home
Desolation yes
Hesitation no

live 1998.??.??

Length: 3:20

BMI Number: 1776114

Today is the greatest
Day I’ve ever known
Can’t live for tomorrow,
Tomorrow’s much too long
I’ll burn my eyes out
Before I get out
I wanted more
Than life could ever grant me
Bored by the chore
Of saving face
Today is the greatest
Day I’ve ever known
Can’t wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I’ll tear my heart out
Before I get out
Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
I tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings
Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you
Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever really known

live 1996.??.??

Length: 5:39

Written By:

BMI Number: 2107451

Wrap me up in always, and drag me in with maybes

Your innocence is treasure, your innocence is death

Your innocence is all I have

Breathing underwater, and living under glass

And if you spin your love around

The secrets of your dreams

You may find your love is gone

And is not quite what it seemed

To appear to disappear

Beneath all your darkest fears

I believe in never, I believe in all the way

But belief is not to notice, believe is just some faith

And faith can’t help you to escape

And with this ring I wed thee true

And with this ring I wed thee now

And with this ring I play so dead

But no one’s asking for the truth, so let me tell you

If you spin your love around

The secrets of your dreams

You may find your love is gone

And is not quite what it seemed

To appear to disappear

Beneath all your darkest fears

To the revelations of fresh faced youth

No one will come to save you

So speak your peace in the murmurs drawn

But youth is wasted on the young

Your strength is my weakness, your weakness my hate

My love for you just can’t explain

Why we’re forever frozen, forever beautiful,

Forever lost inside ourselves

The night has come to hold us young

live 1996.??.??

Length: 4:08

Written By:

BMI Number: 2107458

Shakedown 1979
Cool kids never have the time
On a live wire
Right up off the street
You and I should meet
Junebug skipping like a stone
With the headlights pointed at the dawn
We were sure we’d never see an end to it all
And I don’t even care
To shake these zipper blues
And we don’t know
Just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed
Into the earth below
Double cross the vacant and the bored
They’re not sure just what we have in store
Morphine city slippin’ dues
Down to see
That we don’t even care
As restless as we are
We feel the pull
In the land of a thousand guilts
And poured cement
Lamented and assured
To the lights and towns below
Faster than the speed of sound
Faster than we thought we’d go
Beneath the sound of hope
Justine never knew the rules
Hung down with the freaks and the ghouls
No apologies ever need be made
I know you better than you fake it
To see that we don’t even care
To shake these zipper blues
And we don’t know
Just where our bones will rest
To dust I guess
Forgotten and absorbed
Into the earth below
The street heats the urgency of now (written: sound)
As you can see there’s no one around

live 1993.??.??

Length: 3:52

Written By:

Additional Info:

Cover of Thin Lizzy.


When I passed you in the doorway
You took me with a glance
Should have took that last bus home
But I asked you for a dance
Now we were steady to the pictures
I always get chocolate stains on my pants
Father says “he’s going crazy”
Says I’m livin’ in a trance,
Dancing in the moonlight
It’s caught me in it’s spotlight,
It’s alright, it’s alright, the moonlight
This long, hot summer night
It’s three o’clock in the morning, I’m on the streets again
Disobeyed another warning, Shoulda been home by ten
Now I stay out ’till Sunday, I have to say I stayed with friends
It’s a habit worth forming, It’s a means to justify the end
Dancing in the moonlight
It’s caught me in it’s spotlight,
It’s alright, it’s alright, the moonlight
This long, hot summer night
I’m walking home
Last bus is long gone

live 1998.??.??

Length: 2:59

live 1996.??.??

Length: 4:24

Written By:

BMI Number: 2035564

Time is never time at all

You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth

And our lives are forever changed

We will never be the same

The more you change the less you feel

Believe, believe in me, believe

That life can change, that you’re not stuck in vain

We’re not the same, we’re different tonight

Tonight, so bright

Tonight

And you know you’re never sure

But you’re sure you could be right

If you held yourself up to the light

And the embers never fade in your city by the lake

The place where you were born

Believe, believe in me, believe

In the resolute urgency of now

And if you believe there’s not a tonight

Tonight, so bright

Tonight

We’ll crucify the insincere tonight

We’ll make things right, we’ll feel it all tonight

We’ll find a way to offer up the night tonight

The indescribable moments of your life tonight

The impossible is possible tonight

Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight

live 1998.??.??

Length: 8:24

BMI Number: 4353772

Blank page was all the rage
Never meant to say anything
In bed I was half dead
Tired of dreaming of rest
Got dressed, drove the state line
Looking for you at the five and dime
Stop sign told me stay at home
Told me you were not alone
Blank page was all the rage
Never meant to hurt anyone
In bed I was half dead
Tired of dreaming of rest
You haven’t changed, you’re still the same
May you rise as you fall
You were easy, you are forgotten
You are the ways of my mistakes
I catch the rainfall through the leaking roof
That you had left behind
You remind me of that leak in my soul
The rain falls, my friends call
Leaking rain on the phone
Take a day, plant some trees
May they shade you from me
May your children play beneath
Blank page was all the rage
Never meant to say anything
In bed I was half dead
Tired of dreaming of rest
Got dressed, drove the state line
Looking for you at the five and dime
But there I was picking pieces up
You are a ghost of my indecision
No more, little girl

live 1999.??.??

Length: 3:24

We’ll wander off through the dead of night
Past wastelands of shattered souls
Warm by my firelight
I peer into the darkness alone
As the Indian Summer of my remembrance
Settles on my bones
Cracked and weary, I ask for direction home
Home, let the word spill from my mouth
Love, love is everything I want
I’m one of many more to come
Love, love is everything I want
Crossroads outside of town
The heartbroken faces shine
The city lights so far and dull
Turning left I know it’s time
With an urgent wind upon my rolling heals
To carry me along
My face downcast, I turn to ruins past and home
Home, let the word spill from my mouth
Love, love is everything I want
I’m one of many more to come
Love, love is everything I want
We’ll wander off through the dead of night
Past terrors and broken homes
Wipe the sleep from under your eyes
Of riverbanks and catacombs
Sleep into the bee and the sea
I was to live this life alone
Lay down Caligula
Cry out, I know it’s time
Love is everything I want
Love is everything I want
Love is everything I want
Love is everything I want

live 1999.??.??

Length: 4:53

BMI Number: 5246443

This is the song I’ve been singing my whole life

I’ve been waiting like a knife

To cut open your heart

And bleed my soul to you

I did it all for you

You and you and you and you

This is the sound I’ve been making my whole life

I’ve been waiting for this night

To clear up all the talk

Although I’m selfish to a fault

Is it selfish, it’s you I want

You, I did it all for you

This love will stand as long as you

There’s really no excuse

I did it all for you

These are the tears I’ve been crying my whole life

Like an ocean of desire

I’m reaching through the noise

Across the dusk of time

Within the lilting lights

I am singing out to you

live 1997.??.??

Length: 4:47

BMI Number: 4038672

I lie, I wait
I stop, I hesitate
I am, I breathe
I meant, I think of me
Is it any wonder I can’t sleep?
All I have is all you gave to me
Is it any wonder I found peace through you?
Turn to the gates of heaven, to myself be damned
Turn away from light
It’s not enough, just a touch
It’s not enough
I taste, I love
I come, I bleed enough
I hate, I’m not
I was, I want too much
Is it any wonder I can’t sleep?
All I have is all you gave to me
Is it any wonder I found peace through you?
Turn to the gates of heaven, to myself be damned
Turn away from light
It’s not enough, just a touch
It’s not enough, just a touch
It’s not enough, just a touch
It’s not enough, just a touch
It’s not enough, just a touch
It’s not enough, just a touch

live 1988.??.??

Length: 3:41

Additional Info: It Suits Me Well is an early title for The Vigil. Released on the Nothing Ever Changes tape.

And I saw right through

And though I knew

You know it suits me well

I wait for you

I dream about you

You know it suits me well

Bound by your leaving

I’d since forgotten

I knew it then

But then I closed my mind

To truth, the awful

The awful words

You know my hands are tied

Bound by your leaving

You know my hands are tied

Wishing you were by my side

You know it suits me well

Bound by your leaving

You know my hands are tied

Wishing you were by my side

Well it seems to show

Only when I’m alone

All alone

Only when I’m all alone

It suits me well

live 2000.??.??

Length: 6:12

BMI Number: 5246449

If I were alive
If I were real
Would you survive
What would you feel
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
As sentimental as our broken dreams
Let me die for rock and roll
Let me die to save your soul
Let me die, let me die rock and roll
Let the world forgive the past
Let all the girls kiss the boys at last
Let me go, let me go rock and roll
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
We’re the metal, in their metal machines
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
If I were dead
Would my records sell
Could you even tell
Is it just as well
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
It’s elemental, to all the rust it brings
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Let me die for rock and roll
Let me die and save my soul
Let me go, let me go rock and roll
Let the world forgive the past
Let all the girls kiss the boys at last
Let me go, let me die rock and roll
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
We’re the metal, in their droning schemes
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Will I survive
Is it up to me
Could you understand
That it’s not yours to keep
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine
Heavy metal, heavy metal machine

live 2000.??.??

Length: 3:29

BMI Number: 5090964

You know I’m not dead

You know I’m, you know I’m not dead

You know I’m not dead

Now you know where I’ve been

As you sleep, torn I am

Weighted down patiently

Born of love

You know I’m, you know I’m not dead

I’m just living in my head

Forever waiting on the ways of your desire

You always find a way

And through it all, into us all you move

Forgotten touch

Forbidden thought

We can never have enough

You know I’m not dead

You know I’m, you know I’m not dead

You know I’m not dead

Found below, the creatures scream

Stranglehold, a god machine

Begin to tear us out

What is hell

You know I’m, you know I’m not dead

I’m just the tears inside your head

Forever waiting on the ways of your desire

You always find a way

And through it all, into us all you move

Forgotten touch

Forbidden thought

We can never have enough

You know I’m not dead

We all want to hold in the everlasting gaze

Enchanted in the rapture of his sentimental sway

But underneath the wheels lie the skulls of every cog

The fickle fascination of an everlasting god

You know I’m not dead

I’m just living in my head

Forever waiting

Forever waiting a cruel death

You know I’m not dead

I’m just living for myself

Forever waiting

You know I’m not dead

You know I’m not dead

You know I’m not dead

You know I’m not dead

live 1995.??.??

Length: 2:32

Written By:

BMI Number: 2035569

My reflection, dirty mirror

There’s no connection to myself

I’m your lover, I’m your zero

I’m the face in your dreams of glass

So save your prayers

For when we’re really gonna need ’em

Throw out your cares and fly

Wanna go for a ride?

She’s the one for me

She’s all I really need

Cause she’s the one for me

Emptiness is loneliness, and loneliness is cleanliness

And cleanliness is godliness, and god is empty just like me

Intoxicated with the madness, I’m in love with my sadness

Bullshit fakers, enchanted kingdoms

The fashion victims chew their charcoal teeth

I never let on, that I was on a sinking ship

I never let on that I was down

You blame yourself, for what you can’t ignore

You blame yourself for wanting more

She’s the one for me

She’s all I really need

She’s the one for me

She’s my one and only

live 1993.??.??

Length: 5:13

BMI Number: 1810464

Lover lover let’s pretend
We’re born as innocents
Cast into the world
With apple eyes
To wish wish dangerous
My dear delirious
To try and leave
The rest of us behind
Shot full of diamonds
And a million years
The disappointed disappear
Like they were never here
Kiss kiss all of this
The hiss that we had missed
And understand what can’t be understood
Sear those thoughts of me
Alone and unhappy
I never liked me anyway
If by chance
Or circumstance
We should fail
Don’t be so sad
Shot full of diamonds
And a million years
The disappointed disappear
Like they were never here
In a dream
We are connected
Siamese twins
At the wrist
And then I knew we’d been forsaken
Expelled from paradise
I can’t believe them
When they say that it’s alright
Words can’t define what I feel inside
Who needs them?
Caught with this virus of my mind
I give in to my disease, of my needs
To my disease, of my needs
She really loves to break
Her dad says its OK
She really loves to break
And give it all away
Her ma says she’s afraid
What more can she fake
She really needs to break
And give herself away
She gave it all away
She gave it all away
She gave it all away
We really love the USA

live 1993.??.??

Length: 6:04

Written By:

BMI Number: 1351044

I spin off and lose my head

Throwing stray a spark instead

Gather strength down in my heel

And dig it in the world I peel

Way down deep within my heart

Lies a soul that’s torn apart

Tell me, tell me what your after

I just want to get there faster

I don’t live – I inhale

I don’t give – I unveil

Don’t want to live in your misery

I don’t live – I inhale

Sprinkle all my kisses on your head

Stars full of wishes fill our beds

She said, “I’m dead”

All this pain smothers me

Like a bomb that you can’t see

Tell me, tell me what your after

I just want to get there faster

I don’t live – I inhale

I don’t give – I unveil

I don’t live – I inhale

I don’t live

live 2000.??.??

Length: 4:32

BMI Number: 5246448

Radio, play my favorite song
Radio, radio
Radio, I’m alone
Radio
Radio, please don’t go
Radio
I peer through curtains on empty streets
Behind a wall of caller I.d.
No one’s out there
To hear if I care
About the troubles in the air
As I of the mourning now come
Pick up where my thoughts left off
Cause I’m home to die on my own
As my radio plays my favorite song
Radio, radio
Radio, don’t you know
Radio, radio
Radio, I’m alone
I’ve blown the dust off my guitars
In the attic with the stars
I read your letters to feel better
My tears upon the fading ink
Cause I of the mourning now come
Pick up where my thoughts left off
Cause I’m home to die on my own
As my radio plays my favorite song
Radio, radio
Radio, I’m alone
Radio, radio
Radio, please don’t go
I sit in the dark light
To wait for ghost night
To bring the past alive
To make a toast to life
Cause I have survived
What is it you want
What is it you want to change
What is it you want
What is it you want to change
What is it you want to change
Radio, radio, radio, radio
Radio, radio, radio, radio
Radio, radio, radio, radio
What is it you want
What is it you want to change
What is it you want
What is it you want to change
What is it you want to change

studio 1988

Length: 5:40

BMI Number: 2036406

I’ve been here before

And I don’t know where I go

Reaching for this door

And something tells me I’m alone without you

Heading for the floor

Turning back unless I’m sure

Heading for the floor

And something tells me I’m alone without you

You take

My eternity alone, alone

I’ve been here before

And I don’t know where I go

Reaching for this door

And something tells me I’m alone without you

Heading back, down before

I don’t know where I go

Reaching for this door

And something tells me I’m alone without you

To believe

And I beg

To see

And I beg

(?)

My eternity alone, alone

My eternity, alone

And I fail, …

My eternity alone, alone

And I fail, …

My eternity alone, alone

My eternity, alone, alone

live 1999.??.??

Length: 5:59

Speed kills, but beauty lives forever

Speed thrills, but beauty knows your name

I fell ill inside eternal winter, winter

And stood still beside eternal flame

And when I ride

With you tonight

We can move

At the speed of light

With all I’d asked

And all I’d pray

The last rose of summer would stay

First time that I ever saw you

Crashing hard thru days of pain

You were one of god’s children

Left to cry out in the rain

Waiting to be saved again

‘Cause when I ride

With you tonight

We can move

At the speed of light

And all I’d ask

And all I pray

The last rose of summer

The last rose of summer

The last rose of summer is gone

Long gone, gone

The last rose of summer is gone

When I ride

With you tonight

We can move

At the speed of light

Forever young

Forever blind

Into the stars

We rock tonight

Last rose of summer is gone

The last rose of summer is gone

The last rose of summer is gone

The last rose of summer is gone

The last rose of summer

The last rose of summer

The last rose of summer is gone

live 1998.??.??

Length: 7:21

BMI Number: 4353760

The lights came on fast

Lost in motorcrash

Gone in a flash unreal

But you knew all along

You laugh the light I sing the songs

To watch you numb

I saw you there

You were on your way

You held the rain

And for the first time heaven seemed insane

Cause heaven is to blame

For taking you away

Do you know the way that I can?

Do you know the way that I can’t lose?

Do you know the things that I can?

Do you know the things that I can’t do?

Where is your heart?

Where is your heart gone to?

Tear me apart

Tear me apart from you

You laugh the light I cry the wound

In grey afternoons

I saw you there

You were on your way

You kissed me cold

And for the first time heaven seemed insane

For taking you away

Cause heaven is to blame

For taking you away

The lights came to pass

Dead opera motorcrash

Gone in a flash unreal

In nitrous overcast

Do you know the way that I can?

Do you know the way that I can’t choose?

Do you know the things that I can?

Do you know the things that I can’t lose?

Tear me apart

Tear me apart from you

Where is your heart?

Where has your heart run to?

live 1990.??.??

Length: 6:15

Written By:

BMI Number: 1678959

Window paine around my heart

Shadow stream around my heart

Do what you’re gonna do

And say what you’re gonna say

Do what you’re gonna do

Yeah, start today

Start today

Windblown shame around my heart

Shadow screen around my heart

What are you coming to?

Script down to the bone

Love me, leave me

On your own, all alone

Do what you’re gonna do

And say what you’re gonna say

Do what you’re gonna do

Yeah, start today

Start today

live 1996.??.??

Length: 3:48

Written By:

BMI Number: 2107460

Cast the pearls aside, of a simple life of need
Come into my life forever
The crumbled cities stand as known
Of the sights you have been shown
Of the hurt you call your own
Love is suicide
The empty bodies stand at rest
Casualties of their own flesh
Afflicted by their dispossession
But no bodies ever knew
Nobody’s
No bodies felt like you
Nobody’s
Love is suicide
Now we drive the night, to the ironies of peace
You can’t help deny forever
The tragedies reside in you
The secret sights hide in you
The lonely nights divide you in two
All my blisters now revealed
In the darkness of my dreams
In the spaces in between us
But no bodies ever knew
Nobody’s
No bodies felt like you
Nobody’s
Love is suicide

live 1992.??.??

Length: 3:46

Written By:

Additional Info: Cover of The Animals.

Well I met a girl called Sandoz

And she taught me many many things

Good things, very good things

Sweet things

I met her on a sunny morning

It was hot but the snow lay on the ground

Strange things, very strange things

My mind has wings

Sandoz, Sandoz you taught me love

Sandoz, Sandoz you taught me love

Will you tell me why

We could all learn something from your mind

She is very old, you many think she's young

One kiss from her and you know your time has come

Good times for all time

Sandoz

live 1993.??.??

Length: 11:28

BMI Number: 1810465

I hear your winter

I hear you rain

I've failed your summer ways

And I feel no pain

I hear what you want

And I feel that way

I hear what you want

And I feel that way

I hear you fade away

And I hear you crawl

I gave my life away

And I feel no pain

And I feel no pain

And I feel no pain

And I feel your pain

And she was my lover so sweet

And she was my angel

And what I've recovered of me

I put into a box underneath my bed

When you lie in your bed

And you lie to yourself

When you lie in your bed

And you lie to yourself

Lie

Lie

Bang bang you're dead hole in your head

Bang bang you're dead hole in your head

Bang bang you're dead hole in your head

Bang bang you're dead hole in your head

I hear what you want

And I feel that way

I hear what you want

And I feel that way

live 2000.??.??

Length: 4:07

BMI Number: 4353764

Kiss and kill me sweetly

Come and drive me home

Drag the miles in me

I am yours alone

Inside where it’s warm

Wrap myself in you

Outside where I’m torn

Fight myself in two

In two

Into you

Desire me so deeply

Drain and kick me hard

Whisper secrets for me

Try to go too far

Inside where it’s warm

Wrap myself in you

Outside where I’m torn

Fight myself in two

In two

Into…

Please don’t change

Please don’t change at all

Bring your rain

Bring your rain to fall

Inside where it’s warm

Wrap myself in you

Outside where I’m torn

Fight myself in two

In two

Into you

Come and kiss me sweetly

Ride the telephone

Drag the miles to me

I am yours alone

Yours alone

Yours alone on the telephone

Yours alone looking for a kiss kiss

Yours alone

(studio 1998)

Length: 2:19

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I’d love you to love me
I’m begging you to beg me
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I’d love you to love me
I’ll shine all my shoes
I’ll put on a brand new shirt
I’ll get home early from work
If you’ll say that you love me
Didn’t I, didn’t I, didn’t I see you crying?
Didn’t I, didn’t I, didn’t I see you crying?
Feeling all alone and not a friend you know you feel like dying
Oh didn’t I, didn’t I, didn’t I see you crying?

live 1998.??.??

Length: 4:15

Written By:

BMI Number: 4353762

Who am I
To need you when I’m down
And where are you
When I need you around
Your life is not your own
And all I ask you is for another chance
Another way around you
To live by circumstance
Once again
Who am I to need you now
To ask you why, to tell you no
To deserve your love and sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me
And you may go
But I know you won’t leave
Too many years
Built into memories
Your life is not your own
Who am I to need you now
To ask you why, to tell you no
To deserve your love and sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me
Who am I to you?
Along the way I lost my faith
And as you were you’ll be again
To mold like clay, to break like dirt
To tear me up in your sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me
You were never meant to belong to me
You were never meant to belong to me
Who am I?

live 1998.??.??

Length: 4:55

Written By:

BMI Number: 4353758

With the sugar sickness
You spy the kidnap kid
Who kids you to oblivion
It’s the perfect hassle
For the perfumed kiss
He makes you miss him more than home
You love him
You love him more than this
You love him
And you cannot, you can’t resist
You love him
You love him for yourself
You love him
And no one, no one else
Past sidewalk ashes
A last lovers arc
You come apart to intertwine
It was all so simple
As you watched him move
Across the darkness in your room
You love him
You love him for yourself
You love him
And no one, no one else
And to the winding vines
The pretty boys dive
And thru the pinhole stars
Into the shadow mind
Will you lose him then
On some gentle dawn
This boy is here and gone
You love him
You love him for yourself
You love him
And no one, no one else
You love him
You love him more than this
You love him
And you cannot, you can’t resist
You love him

live 1998.??.??

Length: 5:00

BMI Number: 4353769

I’ve faced the fathoms in your deep
Withstood the suitors quiet siege
Pulled down the heavens just to please you
Appease you
The wind blows, and I know
I can’t go on digging roses from your grave
To linger on beyond the beyond
Where the willows weep and the whirlpools sleep
You’ll find me
The coarse tide reflects the sky
And the night mare rides on
And the night mare rides on
With a December black psalm
And the night mare rides on
What I fear is lost here
The wind blows and I know
All you have to do is run away
And steal yourself from me
Become mystery to gaze into
You’re so cruel in all you do
But still I believe, I believe
You
So may you come with your own knives
You’ll never take me alive
With all the force of what is true
Is there nothing I can do?
I can’t go on digging roses from your grave
To linger on beyond the beyond
Where the willows weep and the whirlpools sleep
You’ll find me
And the night mare rides on
And the night mare rides on
With a December black psalm
And the night mare rides on
I’ve face the fathoms in your deep
Withstood the suitors quiet siege
Pulled down the heavens just to please you
To hold the flower I can’t keep

live 1998.??.??

Length: 3:27

BMI Number: 4353755

I know

We're just like old friends

We just can't pretend

That lovers make amends

We are

Reasons so unreal

We can't help but feel

That something has been lost

But please

You know you're just like me

Next time

I promise we'll be perfect

Perfect

Perfect

Strangers down the line

Lovers out of time

Memories unwind

So far I still know who you are

But now I wonder who I was

Angel

You know it's not the end

We'll always be good friends

But the letters have been sent on

So please

You always were so free

You'll see

I promise we'll be perfect

Perfect

Perfect

Strangers when we meet

Strangers on the street

Lovers while we sleep

Perfect

You know this has to be

We always were so free

We promised that we'd be

Perfect

(demo 1997)

Length: 3:54

We’re so young

And we’re so dumb

With our registered calculations

And if you dare

And should I care

I could destroy you

And take you there

As the spitfires begin their descent

And tragic romantic ascent

My love is one hundred percent

Come back to me, my mistake

Come back to me, my mistake

Come back to me, my mistake

Mistake, it was all my mistake

So suck me through

Your saliva screws

I can’t help myself if I don’t know

The flaws in you

That were equal to

The mysteries I’ve almost knew

And I’ve said this so many, many times

Can’t help you out of your mind

So please don’t judge me unkind

Come back to me, my mistake

Come back to me, my mistake

Come back to me, my mistake

And if you pretend

Please try to offend everyone

We share the sea monkey disease

So give me my greatful little piece

And do what you want as you please

Come back to me, my mistake

Come back to me, my mistake

Come back to me, my mistake

live 1998.??.??

Length: 3:59

BMI Number: 4353763

What if the sun refused to shine?
What if the clouds refused to rain?
What if the wind refused to blow?
What if the seas refused to wave?
What if the world refused its turn?
What if the stars would hesitate?
What if what is isn’t true?
What are you going to do?
What if what is isn’t you?
Does that mean you’ve got to lose?
Digging for the feel of something new
What if the silence let you dream?
What if the air could let you breathe?
What if the words would bring you here?
What if this sound could bring you peace?
What if what is isn’t true?
What are you gonna do?
Digging for the feel of something new
What if what is isn’t you?
What are you gonna do?
It came from your thoughts
Your dreams and visions
Ripped up from your weeks
And indecisions
What if the sun refused to shine?
What if the clouds refused to rain?
What if the world refused its turn?
What if the clocks would hesitate?
What if what is isn’t true?
What are you gonna do?
What if what is isn’t you?
Does that mean you’ve got to lose?
Digging for the feel of something new
Does that mean you’ve got to choose?
The feel of something new
Does that mean you’ve got to lose?
The thoughts you cannot use
What are you gonna do?

live 1998.??.??

Length: 7:54

BMI Number: 4353768

You’re gonna walk on home

You’re gonna walk alone

You’re gonna see this through

Don’t let them get to you

Shame

Love is good and love is kind

Love is drunk and love is blind

Love is good and love is mine

Love is drunk all the time

Shame

You’re gonna walk on home

You’re gonna walk alone

You’re gonna walk so far

You’re gonna wonder who you are

Shame

Love is good and love is kind

Love is drunk and love is blind

Love is good and love is mine

Love is good all the time

Hello goodbye

You know you made us cry

live 1998.??.??

Length: 4:02

Written By:

BMI Number: 1995905

Boredom’s in the bathroom shaking out the loose teeth
Sally’s in the stirrups claiming her destiny
And nobody nowhere understands anything
About me and all my dreams
Lost at sea
Jack it up Judy set your heart alight
Mayfair mistress of the satellites
Misspent youth- faking up a rampage
To hold off the real slaves
Paid off and staid
And what you never knew
Can never get to you
So fake it
I’ll be your stumbleine
I’ll be your super queen
And make you
Jukebox fuckup hanging round the drugstore
No matter what you say he’ll be back for more
Mommy’s in the manger with the little kids
She’s got her reasons, got my forgets
Of tears and idle threats
Misplaced
And no matter what they do
They can’t get to you
So fake it
I’ll be your stumbleine
I’ll be your super queen
And make you me
Come around ruby I could never sleep alone

(demo 1997)

Length: 4:22

BMI Number: 4353759

Mother I’m tired

Come surrender my son

Time has ravaged on my soul

No plans to leave but still I go

Fallin’ with the leaves

Fallin’ out of sleep

To the last goodbyes

Who cares why?

Mother I’ve tried

Wasting my life

I haven’t given up, I lie

To make you so proud in my eyes

Fallin’ out of sleep

Crawlin’ over me

To the last goodbyes

Who cares why?

Tuesdays come and gone

Restless still I drive

Try to leave it all behind

Fallin’, fallin’ out of sleep

Fallin’, fallin’ with the leaves

I got crawlin’, crawlin’ over me

Once upon a time in my life…

I went falling

Mother I hope you know

That I miss you so

Time has ravaged on my soul

To wipe a mother’s tears grown cold

live 1998.??.??

Length: 3:57

BMI Number: 4353766

Dusty screams

Through doors and imaginary floors

“Why can’t you miss me?”

Pistol pete

Removes the final breaths from her unkind

And she is shaken

What does this mean

In love or in peace?

With you lying next to me

So faithless serene

And she calls to him

Let the waste

Cross the ancient trails to you

Far out

Beneath the sorrow clouds

Let them taste

The bitter lost mistake of you

Let them cry out

Through your rusted scars

Alone he roams

Inside the ordinary catacombs

Of her waiting

With raven hands

She steals and staggers towards her man

Still scorned by his demon

Because he’s undone

Become the language of

Disaster and love

Vengeance and dust

And she calls to him

Let the waste

Cross the ancient trails to you

Far out

Beneath the sorrow clouds

Let them taste

The bitter lost mistake of you

Let them cry out

Through your rusted scars

Dusty screams

Through doors and imaginary scenes

Of hurt and teardrop

As he holds her down

In the cold lonely winds

Together again

Her inside him

And she calls to him

Let the waste

Cross the ancient trails to you

Far out

Beneath the sorrow clouds

Let them taste

The bitter lost mistake of you

Let them cry out

Through your rusted scars

live 2000.??.??

Length: 6:44

Written By:

BMI Number: 4353753

Twilight fades through blistered avalon

The sky’s cruel torch on aching autobahn

Into the uncertain divine

We scream into the last divide

You make me real

You make me real

Strong as I feel

You make me real

Sheila rides on crashing nightingale

Intake eyes leave passing vapor trails

With blushing brilliance alive

Because it’s time to arrive

You make me real

You make me real

Strong as I feel

You make me real

Lately I just can’t seem to believe

Discard my friends to change the scenery

It meant the world to hold a bruising faith

But now it’s just a matter of grace

A summer storm graces all of me

Highway warm sing silent poetry

I could bring you the light

And take you home into the night

You make me real / lately I just can’t seem to believe

You make me real / discard my friends to change the scenery

Strong as I feel / it meant the world to hold a bruising faith

You make me real / but now it’s just a matter of grace

live 1999.??.??

Length: 5:15

Written By:

BMI Number: 4353754

It’s you that I adore
You will always be my whore
You’ll be a mother to my child
And a child to my heart
We must never be apart
We must never be apart
Lovely girl you’re the beauty in my world
Without you there aren’t reasons left to find
And I’ll pull your crooked teeth
You’ll be perfect just like me
You’ll be a lover in my bed
And a gun to my head
We must never be apart
We must never be apart
Lovely girl you’re the murder in my world
Dressing coffins for the souls I’ve left to die
Drinking mercury to the mystery
Of all that you should ever leave behind
In time
In you I see dirty
In you I count stars
In you I feel so pretty
In you I taste god
In you I feel so hungry
In you I crash cars
We must never be apart
Drinking mercury to the mystery
Of all that you should ever seek to find
Lovely girl you’re the murder in my world
Dressing coffins for the souls I’ve left behind
In time
We must never be apart
And you’ll always be my whore
Cause you’re the one that I adore
And I’ll pull your crooked teeth
You’ll be perfect just like me
In you I feel so dirty
In you I crash cars
In you I feel so pretty
In you I taste god
We must never be apart

(demo 1998)

Length: 4:05

BMI Number: 4353805

Last chance to make believe in always and all it seems

Train wrecks hide underneath your umbrella

Set the frame destiny on this first name soliloquy

Tired symphonies play downward

Let me give the world to you my love

Let me give the world to you my love

Let me show you what I’m thinking of

Let me give the world to you my love

So far

So far

So far

Lovers form dead excuse

And blur the line with soul abuse

My lonesome lines just have no use around here

New skin may hold you in

But the old skin still turns us on

Flicker fades the nitrate dawn to wear

Let me give the world to you my love

Let me show you what I’m thinking of

Times are hard and we’re the last in line

‘Cause in my grief I’d forgotten what was mine

No I wouldn’t change a thing

No I, no

No I wouldn’t change a thing about the way you are

The distance here, the speed so far

So far

So far

So far

Let me give the world to you my love

Let me give the world to you my love

Let me give the world to you

Let me give the world to you

Let me give the world to you

Let me give the world to you

Let me give the world to you my love

So far

So far

So far